Wednesday, December 30, 2015

Man it's really about appretation and genuine interaction. 

There's so many things you can learn from someone. A lesson u can take away. And I think that's so beautiful. 

Life is so beautiful and so ugly. It's all simultaneous and that blows my mind 

Sunday, December 27, 2015

it's all so fucking clouded

what really matters
who really matters

it feels like a puddle collecting
my confusion constant

to immerse yourself in a book or a movie, to escape
we try to hide in fiction, to escape
to learn and not allow ourselves to be vulnerable
any opportunity we can get to use our knowledge to keep ourselves safe
to make ourselves stronger, (and in doing so) colder

that seems to be the goal
to protect, and to build
to build yourself up and something to stand upon

I am tired of feeling alone
I am always overstaying my welcome somewhere or with someone

I need to be patient
and to understand, to accept that I am on my own
every day is a battle

You don't need anyone and no one needs you
To stand upon my own two feet and to bare the weight

Its all muddled
its all extra

it is a waiting game because I do have a plan
To stay on track with this plan and to not let the extras weigh me down any longer
To hold myself back

My entire life I have ripped myself apart trying to hold others together
And for what?