Sunday, October 28, 2012

ASB - homecoming week has come to an end

bittersweet
this week has been soooooooooooooooooo stimulating and exhilarating in every aspect
there was stress
there were laughs
there was drama
there were tears
there were outbursts, complaints,
and moments of complete serenity and accomplishment that made everything worth it.
i have spent this week with people i may, admittedly, hate sometimes but will love always.
I dont usually talk about ASB but honestly....
i feel so blessed to be able to experience everything ASB has to offer....
the responsibility and pressure makes high school worth it and something to look forward to.
i guess i have finally realized, and it feels weird to say, but i wouldn't be the same person without being a member of this group.
all the shit we go through, all the criticisms we endure, all the mistakes we make........ it all amounts to life lessons a regular student or athlete or theater geek or art fanatic may never acquire.

=]

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Tuesdays mistake (never cold)

I feel it
In the core of my body
Or maybe all throughout
It lives inside of me
Warm and present
growing a bit each day
I can feel it right now
Water collects, ready and
It speaks:
I'm here,
I'm real,
And I may never leave.
It lifts me up often so I feel as if I'm walking on the moon every morning, every afternoon
It makes me want to eat my least favorite foods and spray bleach on my little black dress,
Because it wouldn't matter.
Nothing matters except This.
Maintaining and embracing This.
A soft blanket to perfectly cover and wrap your insides
because
When you're in love,
you're never cold.

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Distractions

Never any privacy
Never comfortable
Never truly at home

Just accepting what's here, trying to convince myself it's good enough. Trying to stay happy through other outlets. Trying to distract myself

Always just distracted.

But when everyone is asleep and in their own room and you're alone unsure of what to do or where to go.. with nothing left to do besides think... It's hard to ignore your misfortunes
and
It's even harder not to be sad

Monday, October 8, 2012

Saturday

Your mountains
My peaks
Each closer to the cloud we made together
I named it after how I felt
Everyday with you is a Saturday afternoon