Monday, March 26, 2012

I want my husband to have known he was going to marry me after the first day meeting me......

#unreasonableexpecations

Thursday, March 22, 2012

knocking knees

my hands are shaky
my legs are waking noodles
come here touch my tummy
full of caterpillars
your warm contact, that spark of life
instant
essential
resuscitators.
a swarm of butterflies flew from my belly button
all green, looking like four leaf clovers
hovering over our heads, collectively on the ceiling
reminding you
were about to get lucky

Sunday, March 18, 2012

all the world's a stage

i found out i'm nothing but cold
remnants to your collection
a single smudge in your inspection i
thought this was real
the real deal that
one time love my
sister reads about in her novels with the colorful covers.
i wanted to be a colorful novel with you,
were able to read me like i book
and i sat there and marveled at the sound
your voice makes me
puzzled but intrigued, concentrating hard
on the soft hums im hearing, like a child
in class wanting to be like the smart kids able
to comprehend able to understand so
i pretended, i was good at pretending.
i think you finally caught me
you asked me to stop acting, to be real
you begged me to stop acting
but all i could do was stare at you blankly
and ask how?

Saturday, March 17, 2012

I want everything.
...Realistically, to be fair, I want many things.
Why is it so hard to have everything you want?
I have so many areas of interest and it's so hard to stay 100% committed to everything I love doing....
why
why







why

Monday, March 5, 2012

the red queen effect

the support on my shoes are running thin
the wholes on the soles
are threatening to those lost
wandering, uncertain
like the rest of us
we keep running because we dont know what else to do
if there is even anything else to do

Thursday, March 1, 2012

i feel so empty and yet so full