feels intimidatingly small.... and then
sometimes i visit google maps just to remind me how wrong i am.
there is a world full of people out there.
people who don't know of my existence or my family's or my history or my name.
people who don't know about my city, my town, my county, maybe even my state.
it's crazy how engulfed i have become in my life.
in the simple aspects of it all....
school, homework, friends, sleeping, eating, computer, tv.
i have done nothing worth any serious honorable mention, and although i know i'm young it feels a little uncomfortable knowing just how easily and quickly my name could fade.
feeling as if im a robot falling some sort of "correct" routine.
i know school is supposed to prepare you for your future, but all it has been doing recently has been keeping me busy. keeping me occupied. keeping me stressed and exhausted.
sometimes i dont have time to think .... really think. any free time is spent on the computer or watching tv or talking to a friend or scrambling around cute boys.
my life is full of distractions and writing a simple thoughtful blog has been out of the question recently...
i dont know, i guess i have come to the realization that life moves so fast, sometimes it's difficult to get past the everyday normal bare-minimum type thinking and really think.... genuinely think about what i have been spending all my time on and whether it's really worth it. or more so just to give myself a chance to look at the big picture. i think this is an aspect people often forget to do; giving yourself time to look at the big picture.
whatever your big picture is.
regardless of whether you're able to see it clearly... or even at all.
everyone needs at least five minutes a day to turn off their routine and think
think outside the box society provides for us.....
a box full of distractions meaningless tasks; entertaining they may be... but it's time to recycle