Tuesday, December 27, 2011

So............bored.................with everything.


Kinda....





I need some fast acting motivation because there is only a week left of break and I am not feeling reenergized like I was hoping... maybe this is all my mindset... I need to change... okay, I can do this i can do this i can do this

Saturday, December 24, 2011

alone for life

Disappointing ends.
Sporadic mends.
Typical trends.
Spontaneous spends.
Straight bends.
Whimsical lends.
Disappointing ends.
In the beginning I misunderstood, but now I got it.
The word is good.

Friday, December 23, 2011

If only I put as much energy into homework as I do into making mixed CDs....

bitches better like them

Thursday, December 22, 2011

This is a photo of by BFF Linda Nguyen.
She is so cute it makes my toe hairs tingle.

First day of Lip Sync Sh-nannys

One Backdrop done. My back hurts. Paint is every where. I'm too lazy to shower tonight... I dont want to wake up tomorrow gue.
Lessons of the day:
Anne Gock......
Stupid May people.


Monday, December 19, 2011

I need more close* friends........

sigh
I need more friends............

Friday, December 16, 2011

One.
More.
Day.

One.
More.
Day.

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

My heart is stressin for a blessing.

I want to start either a Creative Thinkers Club or a Creative Writing Club...... I'm not sure which... the first is more open-ended, which may be more appealing... but would also be harder to regulate.

My dog of 12 years is going to be put down tomorrow, and I'm going to have to fulfill my commitment at this community service event. Fake smiles and teary eyes all day tonight and tomorrow.

watch this

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

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Sunday, December 11, 2011

Saturday, December 10, 2011

my eye lids are heavy,
inspiration running through me
veins thick,
smooth vibes and confusion on a lonely saturday night
weekends are too short now

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

this is what history does to a person:

Just to think about a human being having to wear an iron muzzle like a dog is fucking sickening. My heart goes out to all slaves, but especially to those who rebelled against their "masters". Truly from my heart, I just want you know to know your fight, small or big, made a difference. The pain and tribulations you survivors went through is fucking embarrassing to the history of man kind... I can only endlessly long to tell you that you were right. I want to let you know that in the end, you fucking won. I, again, can only wish I could share only a mere fraction of the freedom I am blessed with today. The freedom you would share with me. As an equal. As a liberated citizen. Your guys' courage influences me to stand. If it kills me I will at least, on a small scale, fight for what I believe or want. We our only ants because we believe we are ants. Together we can build a fucking colony. A colony stronger than any corporation. A colony bigger than any evil elite. A colony bigger than any politician's lies. Together we are power. The middle class may be disappearing, but together we can retake what is ours. I sit here, a naive fifteen year old, with big hopes, big ambitions, and yet, to me the wrongs in our country seem so fucking ridiculously obvious.... tangible. I sit here wondering is everyone in our nation OBLIVIOUS? Is our majority giving in? Have we forgotten what this nation was built on? We could be the biggest fucking colony any corrupt government has seen, and yet we sit here, pretending everything is okay. Pretending everything will be okay. And yet we sit here, and leave our future to handful of people. WE are the majority. WE ALL need to open our eyes. Get the fuck off your asses people. Not everything they tell you is true... I am an extremest and I admit that. I let my creative mind interfere with reality, and I admit that.... but truly people, how fucking numb can we get?

Monday, December 5, 2011

trying desperately not to give up....... if only i were smart enough to construct a clone robot of myself to go to school for me.... I'd still attend the dances and anything unrelated to math and spanish....other than that I'd be free as can be....
___________

hm... history really interests me now that I think of it.... maybe I'll be a history teacher... hm....

Sunday, December 4, 2011

how u durn

Mary's party = fun saturday night.
She pretty much was passed out for her whole party...haha
I love everyone who came except some peeps who were secluded anyway...
good times =]