Tuesday, November 29, 2011


please God help me stay sane in this crazy house....

my family, this home, this situation, this exam, this financial crisis, this lack of respect, this lack of family.... is stressing me out.

I just want to sleep and not have to deal with anyones' bullshit.
but that can't happen....
the clock is ticking... writing this doesn't stop anything...
the world stops for nothing...
tomorrow ill take that exam, whether im ready or not.
this week my dog will be put down, whether im ready or not.
this week family drama will continue like it always will, whether im ready or not.
i just want to have peace... once... for one week... for one day.... but no..
I just have to keep telling myself soon this will all pass. Secretly I know that's not cutting it anymore....
this will all pass.
this will all pass.
this will pass.

Saturday, November 26, 2011

My dog has cancer. This break has done nothing but fucking suck. I love you brandy. I love you brandy. I love you brandy.....

I'm going to miss you brandy.

Sunday, November 20, 2011

this break isn't much of a break....


Saturday, November 19, 2011


sucks the big one. making my life miserable.

Friday, November 18, 2011

havent been this sick in a long time.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

amazingly accurate - career quiz

ENFPs represent between 6 and 8% of the U.S. population

Curious, energetic, adaptable, and creative, ENFPs like considering unconventional approaches. They enjoy batting around ideas and finding creative solutions and are energized and intrigued by new possibilities and anything out of the ordinary. ENFPs tend to be talkative, enthusiastic, playful, and generally fun-loving people. Warm and caring, ENFPs have strong personal values upon which they base most decisions. Conversations with ENFPs can be very circular as they excitedly move from one topic to the next, making connections and associations.

Unconventional and occasionally irreverent, they pride themselves on their uniqueness and originality. Optimistic, and spontaneous, ENFPs have a strong sense of the possible. For them, life is an exciting drama. Because they are so interested in possibilities, ENFPs see significance in all things and prefer to keep lots of options open.

Some careers or ministries that often appeal to ENFPs are: artist/entertainer, public speaker/evangelism, clergy/counselor, consultant, journalist, social scientist, nurse, writer/editor, teacher/trainer, youth worker, missions, public relations, social worker, advocate for the less fortunate.

Monday, November 14, 2011

Motivation/Goal = get good enough grades to qualify/afford GOING AWAY for college.

Slept for 5 hours.... nap was awesome.

Although, I'm not tired because of this nap I am going to try to go to sleep by 12:30.

Looked into some scholarship information today... there are a lot I can qualify for now, so I think when I have some extra time I'll be looking more intensely/seriously into those various opportunities....

Other than that, I've got a busy week ahead of me. Major exams, leadership & lipsync deadlines, club responsibilities, family/friend responsibilities, and various council meetings. Fortunately, Thanksgiving break is right around the corner. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this.

Oh.. I'm getting sick. Weird.. I'm never sick.
I want to work out.....

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Homework day. All day. Sad day. Oh well. this will not be the death of me!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, November 12, 2011

failed plans, cold hands. homework and hot chocolate, occasional cough. winter is near.
homework soothes no pain
Marianna's birthday night. Fun fun. Happy Vets day.

-sketch h.b.
-bunk / buck / boojie / dank / dookie
-joey throwing up

_addition: charlie

Friday, November 11, 2011

i hate being lied to... especially when it's obvious and pointless. nothing just turned into something...

funny how you lied to try avoid problems. hah.

do you guys think im stupid?

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Note to self: Read everyday.

Life. Life is a beautiful mystery. Be happy you are alive. Pray and be happy. You may not achieve everything you want, you may look dumb or act stupid sometimes, but life goes on. Time stops for no one. This is only temporary. Stand for what is right, and try to fix what is wrong. You are not perfect. Work everyday, love everyday. You will get through this.