Sunday, July 24, 2011

I'm unavoidable like death

I haven't felt this good in a long time, and I think I know why.
Life is going swimmingly.
I'm loving it.
I feel good.
The positive vibes remain, hoping and praying they're here to stay.

Getting to know lots of new people, networking. It's refreshing.
Building on old chemistry and creating long time friends.
Catching up with best friends.

People, people, and more people all around me. Feels good. However, I have accepted that you are alone, and I am okay with that. Learning something new everyday. Life is most enjoyable for me when I am doing so.

My prayers are being answered.
I feel my faith strengthening...
I haven't felt this good in a long time.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

notes on current feelings

Feeling content. Happy. Satisfied for the most part. I haven't really "done" a lot this summer, but for some reason I'm not really bent out of shape about it. I would describe this summer as laid back. I'm enjoying free time, sleeping in, writing, and hanging around people I want to be around. I could always ask for more, but I don't find myself doing so. Keeping things positive. It feels good to be my own person again. Regrouped. Positive. Free. I think this is why I am not disappointed with my summer. I feel good. Mellow. Relaxed. No worries. I haven't had this in a while.

:) :) :) :) :)

Don't get me wrong I'm still planning on doing a lot the rest of this summer, but I'm just saying I'm not disappointed with how it's been so far. Good vibes all around.

Monday, July 18, 2011

"I dream too much and I don't write enough, and I'm trying to find God everywhere - trying to figure out this thing called a man."
-A.M.

Fransico is probably the only man I would marry right now....
like right now.
right, right now.
right now.
right.
now.

being young

Being young is fucking hard.
Everything is against you.
Odds. money. people. history. statistics. drugs. credit. experience.

I feel like part of the reason why everyone is automatically more respected when they are old is because everyone recognizes that they've made it.
They made it through all the same shit you're going through now.
They serve as our reminders, that we can make it too.

Friday, July 15, 2011

It's time to wake the fuck up.

Currently not sleeping at 4:30 in the morning. I took it upon myself to catch up on ASB work. Tonight was long overdue, but better late than never. I've recently decided to get my shit together again. I found my bible last night. Been praying the last few nights consecutively, and am going to keep it up. I'm trying to rekindle my relationship with Jesus. No more excuses. I'm writing again. I've been praying for motivation. Things are looking up. I've also decided to broaden my horizons. I do not want to waste my summer bumming it around all day. I'm going to be networking a lot more than I have in the past, and am reconsidering my motives and goals. I forgot how positive I used to be, and am now trying to bring certain aspects of who I used to be, back. Currently I am enjoying the familiar positive vibes. I have a lot of hopes for the rest of this summer, and anticipate meeting a lot new people and experiencing new things. Going out there with an open mind, and I feel good.

Thursday, July 14, 2011

I just want the world to wake up, so I can get this show on the road. I want to get my shit together. I want to care. I want to live, and I want to take advantage of my youth and of my freedom. My life is only beginning. Right now is crucial. Right now is crucial. Right now will always be crucial.

Goodnight daytime sleepers.
Goodmorning nightime dreamers.

7 billion human beings on this earth.
Most of which you will never meet.
However, a small portion, a very small portion, you will meet. An even smaller portion of these people, you will learn to love.
Don't be just another statistic.
Get out there. Put yourself out there.
Network, network, and then network some more.

I'm loving summer.
And I'm loving these positive vibes.
Time to put some effort into my life.
Time to wake the fuck up.

Sunday, July 10, 2011

I feel good about myself. I feel good about my friends. I feel good about my future.
Most of all...I feel good about the rest of this summer.

I'm happy, independent, and enjoying being young and free.

Today was hard work. I'm sunburned. Tonight was fun. I love birthday parties, Asian people, and catching up. I've forgotten what it feels like to be this tired. This reminds me of school. I don't know how I pulled of a 3.7.......

The music, still audible, still playing, starts to fade...
You start to fade...
Time is passing, fast.
You're living, slow.

Friday, July 8, 2011

bad boys

whats your name spelt backwards?
ellehcim

What did you do last night?
went to veronica/vanessas and went night swimming :)

The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
music

Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?
...no

Last time you swam in a pool?
last night! sososo refreshing!

What are you wearing?
shirt/shorts

How many cars have you owned?
0

Type of music you dislike most?
polka

Are you registered to vote?
i wish

Do you have cable?
yee

What kind of computer do you use?
hp

Ever made a prank phone call?
yee

You like anyone right now?
kinda sorta notreally

Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
both

Furthest place you ever traveled?
new york

What's your favorite comic strip?
sleeping 101

Do u know all the words to the national anthem?
uh...

Shower, morning or night?
night

Best movie you've seen in the past month?
maybe transformers 3.....maybe. its a new month

Favorite pizza toppings?
pepperoni

Chips or popcorn?
myeh

What cell phone provider do you have?
ghettopcs

Have you ever smoked peanut shells?
no

Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
no

Orange Juice or apple?
grape

Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?
carolina/ver

favorite chocolate bar?
snickers

Who is your longest friend and how long?
ariahna....14 yearsish

Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
dont care

Have you ever won a trophy?
yee

Favorite arcade game?
house of war

Ever ordered from an infomercial?
no

Sprite or 7-UP?
sprite

Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?
yee

Last thing you bought at Walgreens?
.........

Ever thrown up in public?
yee

Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?
-.- true love

Do you believe in love at first sight?
nah

Did you have long hair as a young kid?
yee

What message is on your voicemail machine?
a computer

Where would you like to go right now?
sleep

Whats the name of your pet?
brandy

Last person you held hands with?
my

Last person's bed you were in, other than your own?
Caro's

Current bother?
That'd i'm bothered......

One weakness?
boys..........

Favorite thing?
boys..........

Last person to give you his/her number?
johny or jonny or somethin

What's something you said today that sticks out to you?
Looks like I'm back to square one.
-_________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________-

fuckity fuck fuck fuck

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Are you currently looking for a significant other?
currently having fun....being young and free. definitely have a few love interests at the moment but not committing to anyone or anything anytime soon. having fun, having fun... =)

Did the last person you kiss have tattoos?
yes

How did you get your last bruise?
being dumb

Who was the last person you took a picture with?
a puppy named taylor

Who was the first person to text you today?
sean

Are you currently sad about anything?
that its so hot im sweating by just sitting here and doing nothing. i wish i lived alone so i could take of my clothes and not be hot.... -____-

Are you tired?
no

Where were you at noon yesterday?
watching transfomers 3 :)

Would you hug the last person you hugged again?
yes.. hell yes

Do you have trust problems?
yes...... DTA ALL DAY

Do you dance?
for fun. i love it!

Name something that made you frown today?
the weather

Is there anyone you want to come see you?
yes... a few people actually

How would you feel if your last ex fell in love with someone else?
happy for him

Are you in a good mood right now?
a little giddy

Ever been called babe?
quite a few

Do you have anything that belongs to a boyfriend/girlfriend?
nope

Who was the last person you had an argument with?
um..... probably mary hahaha

Do you believe exes can be friends?
yee

Do you have a best friend?
i think so

Who was the last person who left your life and hurt you?


Are you in the middle of texting someone?
yes actually... this is refreshing :)

Is there someone on your mind that shouldn't be?
i have a right to use my imagination

Do you think things will change in the next few months?
yes

Whats the last taste in your mouth?
agua

Do you know any of your neighbors?
no

Has anyone ever bought you a ring?
no

Who was the last girl you talked to?
jaynee

Describe your day so far in three words:
hot....hot... and hot

Look at your nails; Do they need to be cut?
nah

Have you been on any type of online messengers today?
yee

Who was the last person you called?
sam

What are you wearing on your feet?
nothing

About how many hours of sleep did you get last night?
like 3/4

What was the most stressful project you had so far/while in school?
um...... one doesnt pop out

What are you currently dressed in?
shorts/shirt

List three things near you:
phone/computer/my dog brandy

What was the last thing you watched on the TV?
max goes to college

What was the last thing you looked up on Google?
lyrics

Are you listening to any music right now? If so, what are you listening to?
ryan leslie

Is your hair naturally straight?
no

Do you own a pair of slippers?
nope

Is there anyone that you're mad at right now?
nope

Who was the last person to make you smile?
sam

Do you think love is overrated?
no

What kind of cologne/perfume do you like the opposite sex to wear?
good smelling ones

When was the last time you went on a cleaning spree?
a quarter to never

Did you have a valentine for valentines day?
nope

Ever ditched out on plans to do something better with someone else?
yes

Is there something you want to say to someone but can't/won't?
mmm.....probably

Is there snow on the ground where you are?
......no wtf

What is keeping you warm right now?
THIS HEAT IS MELTING ME

Do you think it's cute when a boyfriend/girlfriend gives a random gift?
yee