Wednesday, June 29, 2011

This confusion feeds my soul.
This illusion seduces us all.
I just like this kind of attention.
Somebody provide me with further entertainment...
So...........Who wants to be my summer lover?
the awkward moment when you're your own best friend.............hahaha
that awkward moment when you laugh at yourself after realizing how stupid something you did was...... me.
Is it bad that I've already forgotten what you look like?

Monday, June 27, 2011

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Have you ever slept on the floor with someone you liked?
yes

Who is your last text from?
ct

Which movie did you last see in theaters?
bridesmaids -_______- dont ask

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
who was that........joey? yee

Are you crushing on someone?
nah

If you could go back in time and change things, would you?
nope

Have you ever slept in the same bed with the last person you kissed?
nope

Is there someone who you can spend every minute with and be happy?
nope

Who's thinking about you right now?
nope

Do you like to cuddle?
yupe

Are you keeping a secret right now?
always

Was it a boy or a girl to text you first today?
boy

What is your current annoyance?
annoying people

Are you easily scared by horror movies?
not usually

Do you know anyone who's been in jail?
yes

Does someone like you right now?
maybe

Are you friends with any of your ex boyfriend/girlfriends?
ishies

Are you a risk taker?
i rode down the handrail connecting the two stories of target outside the mall....that was pretty risky of me

Are you anyone's first love?
nahzers

If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?
summer

What was your worst mistake in your life?
....not speaking up

What's something you really want right now, be honest!
more summertimes, more sleep, more lovin

Are you looking forward to anything?
summer nights, asb camp, summer nights, more summer nights, hot boys, sexy boys, no homework for a few more months, summer nights,

Who was the last person of the opposite sex you had a conversation with?
oscar

Plans for tomorrow?
jessicas goodbye breakfast

Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
yee

Is the last person you hugged older than you?
yee

Have you ever liked someone you didn't expect to?
yee

Have you ever cried during a movie?
yee

Are you comfortable with your height?
yee

Whats your favorite thing to eat?
yee

Last text recieved?
"what pinn"

What is sitting next to you?
water

Do you have a bad temper?
nee

Ever been so drunk someone else had to carry you?
nee

Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers?
nee

Are you easily amused?
yee

Do you miss someone?
yee

Who was your last received call from?
joey

Are you doing anything tonight?
went to the beach and hung out with oscar/david/jack/henry

Do you speak more than 6 languages?
...............................hola

Who else is in the room with you?
nobody

Do you think you will be married in 5 years?
not even close

How do you feel about your hair?
its growing.........getting there

Do you sleep with a fan on?
nee

What is bothering you?
im tired now

Were you happy when you woke up?
no i wanted to go back to sleep.....

When someone says "we need to talk," what runs through your mind?
ok

Do you mind being cold?
yes

Have you ever laughed so hard you cried?
yes

If you could go back 8 months and change something would you?
no

Do you drink coffee?
pussy coffee

Have you ever liked someone older than you?
only

Do you find piercings attractive?
yes

When is your birthday?
may

Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
yes

Ever made someone cry?
probably

Are you mad at your best friend?
no

Who's bed did you sleep in last night?
jessicas

Did you sleep in past noon today?
i wish

Is this year the best year of your life?
doubt it

Are you trying to avoid liking/loving somebody at the moment?
i dont avoid those things ...........OH WAIT just kidding hahahahah *tear face*

Names You Go By:
michelle
shellz
chelle
mitchy
mickie

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
shorts
sweater

Do you still have feelings for your ex?
no

Have you ever been given roses?
unfortunately

What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
notebook/its a wonderful world

Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
yes

Have you ever had sex?
no

Have you ever had your heart broken?
haha yes

Your thoughts on online relationships?
no. not cool. unpractical. gross.

Have you ever seen a guy friend as more than a friend?
duh

How many kids do you want to have?
i dont want girls

What is your favorite color(s)?
green

What are your views on gay/lesbian marriage?
that state should not be involved with who people marry regardless of mine or anyones' views

Do you believe you truly only love once?
haha no

Imagine you’re 79 & your spouse just died, would you re-marry?
maybe

Do you know someone who likes you?
heh

Do you like anyone?
HA

Do you love anyone?
a lot of people

Sunday, June 19, 2011

break the bricks,
climb over them,
and when the sirens scream,
laugh aloud,
hold my hand and run fast.
Run through the streets with me with a bunch of bottles,
a bucket of gasoline,
a mouthful of matches,
a pocket full of paintings
and fresh faced batch of policemen to chase the fires we are lighting
Finally going to sleep.
I love summertime!!!

People who have no say in what I choose to do need to stop acting like they have control over me. Who are you to tell me what to do?
I do want I want.
Shove your rules where the sun don't shineeeeeeee bro



In other news, tonight was pretty fun. Not as good as yesterday night, but still fun! :)

can't wait for the many summer nights and future adventures

____

What were you doing five minutes ago?
Venting.

What are you excited for?
Warped tour seeing dance gavin dance/syg and other awesome bands!!! Ugh going to be so fun!!

Highlight of your day?
Hm....... kings cup was pretty fun hahaha

Anything you want to do right now?
Dance

Anything you should be doing right now?
.............sleeping

stopping here.
night sexy people.

Saturday, June 18, 2011

ITS SUMMER BITCHES

I love my friends!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ugh......... I love my friends sooo much!!!
:'''''''''''')

Thursday, June 16, 2011

love them so much (plus others which I didnt get good or any photos with)


kaleena

derrick

ivan

miguel

dom

kimber

jaynee

kevin

michelle y raffa

paige

patrick

bobo

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

I am going to miss my friends.

Today consisted of fatigue, annoyances, getting cute, LOTS AND LOTS OF PHOTOS, tears, laughs, frustration, and reminiscing.

)':')
Class of 2011, I am so proud of you guys!! Ugh, the school is not going to be the same with out you........
A decent portion of my loves are leaving me! :(
As for everyone staying local....I still love you and we are going to have the best summer ever together! :)


In other news I can't believe I wasted two hours+ at olive garden...unsatisfied. :( At least Summer and Jessica were good company! Pictures up later because Jessica is a lagger!!!

As of right now, I have my hardest finals tomorrow.... (of course ):
I should start studying...... going to get comfortable and start studying. I can do this. Just two more days. Just two more days.

this was bowling night! Ugh, I love these people so much.





Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Working like dogs

Worked on my final flash animation at Martin's for a year and a half today.
Last week of school. I can do this.
Martin's boss at flash(....kinda). He saved my ass though, so I'm forever grateful!
Thanks for slothmaster. :)



In other news, I can barely keep my eyes open = time to start my other homework!
I'm getting a D in geometry.
Fuck- fuck. fuck. fuck. FUCK.

Reminders:
The eye joke. Too good.

A message to the help:

We've got no where to go, and no one to go with.
Lets travel together.
I want to travel with you.
Be my partner in crime.
I'll be your justice.
Lets travel together.
I want to travel with you.

Monday, June 13, 2011

Ay niña
Yo te encuentro
Solita por la calle
Yo me siento amorado
Yo me siento triste solo

Djobi djoba
Cada dia te quiero mas
Djobi djobi djobi djoba
Cada dia te quiero mas
Djobi djobi djobi djoba
Cada dia te quiero mas

Que lo me importa
Que lo distancia
Ya nos separe
Yo me contento me retir
Y no me diga ay
Para guarja ja

Djobi djoba
Cada dia te quiero mas
Djobi djobi djobi djoba
Cada dia te quiero mas
Djobi djobi djobi djoba
Cada dia te quiero mas

Good Sunday

Super 8 with Oscar was fun. Only 5 bucks!! J.J Abrhams better side of directing, produced by Spielberg.... reminded me of his roots (the goonies).

Bowling with Jessica, Yazmin, Angie, Vanessa, George, Dominic, Luis, Joey, and Derrick was zeeeeee bombs. I miss bowling!!

Sunday, June 12, 2011

when asked "What does writing mean to you?"

Writing for me is more than a teenage phase or some cliche love expedition. Writing for me is freedom. In my opinion, there is no greater feeling than that which freedom provides. Before writing, I was not a passionate person. To have no limits, no rules, no confinements, is something to be cherished, and is something I most definitely take advantage of. To write or to write? There is no option for me anymore... My name is Michelle Martinez. I play rugby, take too many naps for my own good, am horrible at math, have a premium disneyland pass, don't believe in luck or wishes, enjoy learning something new everyday, have been homeless before, don't finish most books I start, talk more about government conspiracies than shoes, enjoy hot boys who smell good, like all genres of real music, and take pride in my youth.
Moments when you question why you do the things you do and put up with certain things people do to you.
Moments like these.

Saturday, June 11, 2011

la dispute

Maybe it’s just as much about what comes our way as it is how we react.
Just as much about the things that we’ve still got as it is about the things we lack.
I know, we won’t always keep around all we feel we need-
some are fading in frames, some were born to leave-
But if we’re still here, and we still breathe,
At least we’ve still got time to figure it out,
To know what to do,
To know how to feel,
Know the things that I’ve been making up inside my head,
And to know what’s real.
I want to believe that the way I am is just the way it goes.
For the things that came, not the things I chose to come.
I want to know if I had any control.
I want to know if it’d comfort me.

someone buy me the feather room!

I can not put a lid on top of my love,
all i can do is take these great arms of mine
dip them into that star,
and like paint brain brushes
swing them across empty spaces to see what might fall through the clouds

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Lets just get married and call it a day.
Lets just get married and call it a great fucking day.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

home is wherever im with you

im talking about stones here

Studied like a dog.
Tired, I am. I am tired.
tired.
sleep.
sleep.
Shower then sleep.
Now.

Nothing too exciting go on right now... just dealing with end of the year festivities. Parties and finals. Goodbyes and free time. The end of the school year is always bitterSWEET.

Starting a creative writing club at my school.
Need to get the packet.
Need to remember to get the packet.
And study some more.
Night.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Bullshit: (Noun) A thing taught at every public school, in almost every subject.

Bullshit: (Noun) A thing taught at every public school, in almost every subject. Majority of this bullshit is funded by our taxpayers' money. [Going to write a letter to our board of education in hopes of convincing them to at least somewhat stop wasting my time and our citizens money on the bullshit taught in our public schools]

I hate wasting my time(life) on busy work on subjects which will mean nothing to me by the end of summer. I will not remember the geometric formulas on how to find the volume of prisms and cones by next week, let alone the rest of my life. Nice try though, maybe if I wanted to go into some odd career which proves not worth tax payers' money to be taught to me because of the lack of actual jobs which apply the skills I am being taught in half my classes, maybe then this would seem more worth my time? That is irrelevant though, because I can definitely say the plans and goals I have for my life do not include memorizing these formulas and playing mathematician with nonexistent shapes. Where can I turn in my letter of resignation and refusal to further continue wasting my time with all the nonsense public schools insist on wasting our citizens' money by teaching? We're in a recession, it's time to get real America.


Just think about what else we could have students doing instead of some of the bullshit they teach us? Possibilities are endless.

Sunday, June 5, 2011

sitting here unsure of what to do.
maybe i should cry or scream or just start my homework.
but i do nothing. i sit here.
listening to music but not really listening.
hoping something will happen.
hoping i will make a move, but i dont.
i am drained.
i am drained and alone.
seems when you think you need someone most they are too busy with their own lives for you.
the world doesnt revolve around anyone.
time doesnt stop for anyone...
so i sit here unsure of what to do.
i am alone and drained.
i am alone and i feel close to no one.
i am alone
i feel close to no one




"Do you think the person you chose, put your number for the previous question as well?"
"No."

Friday, June 3, 2011

I'm tryna act like I can do without feeling on your booty
Find another ghetto cutie
To do me like you do me