Saturday, February 26, 2011

Sadies was awesome................ All that work paid off!!!

Yay for new hotties


Thursday, February 24, 2011

Starting on homework.... now.

Losing myself.
Losing culture.
Losing time.
Losing soul.

Losing my ability to give a shit about it all.......
Tomorrow should be fun. Hope the costume works out. I'm dressing up as Padme from star wars... Pictures up later.
My night not even in a nutshell....
My night in a shell.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

I love trigonometry too!!!!!!!!!! It's so weird because I hate all other types of math; trig I don't mind doing...

Just finished studying for my test tomorrow...
Going to shower and then go to sleep.
I don't think I'm going to do half bad tomorrow.....

Recap: (personal reminder)
Friday - Java night
Sat - glasses / cookies / rainstorm & walmart / sam's [never let me go]
Sun - woke up late / juju's / lame / story / fun / sam's pt 2
Mon - woke up late / deuces / hw / dinner w/ homies / b&n / hw / sleep

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Naps = how I get by.
5 1/2 hour nap today.
I feel awesome.
Bring it on homework..... I'm going to ace my test tomorrow!!

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Physical pain.
Mentally drained.
A poem.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

I've been reading over my last few blogs... and I've found I fell into this weird apathetic state of mind. I disappoint myself. Done with the nonsense....

I just woke up today feeling good.
I woke up today feeling great.
I woke up today feeling amazing.
I just woke up today with this rejuvenated love for life... something I subconsciously let escape me.
It's not like I'm going through some big change or anything, I'm just realizing I was just wasting time....
I have no time to waste.
Life only seems unbearably tough when you let your optimism go.
I have learned this the hard way, many times...
I'll say it once, and I'll say it again, 'sometimes you have to sit down and talk some sense into yourself'.
It's tuesday night and my disposition is admirable.
And I'm loving it.
Today was actually fun.
Pleasant surprises = awesome day.
What more could you ask for?


Monday, February 14, 2011

Thank you foodstamps

The reason I ate like a queen tonight.

Tomorrow is Valentines day.
I don't have a Valentine.
Will I ever?

Disneyland tomorrow.
No one is going to show.
Oh well, it's Disneyland.
I'll have fun on my own...

PS I love Linda.
I guess I'll go to bed soon..
I guess I have to wake up moderately early tomorrow..


Sunday, February 13, 2011

Times are slow... looks like it's time for a survey.

Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced?

Does a kiss make you feel better?
From a hot boy.... yes.

Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?

Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in?
Before! that's what all the smart people do nowadays!

What did you do today?
woke up. watched a movie. showered. paid the phone bill. bought stuff. had game night. wrestled. lurked and watched videos. talked. this.

Have you ever brushed your teeth while in the shower?

Have you had more than 3 boyfriends/girlfriends at the same time?
Yeah I'm doing that right now... uh hell no are you retarded?

Have you ever thought about your death?

Ever been in love?
have you ever not been in love?

Would you rather be in a permanent relationship or play the field?
hahahahaha..... good question

What is your favorite sport?

What color is your shower curtain?
I have a shower door

Have you ever had stitches?
no which I am thankful for

Did you believe that boys/girls had cooties?
no even going to waste my time..

Do you know how to use chop sticks?
Lyrics stuck in your head?
"everyday ought to be a bad day for you"

Do you like the Red Sox or Yankeess?
What are you doing tomorrow?
hopefully something besides the usual something

Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off of?
smart/hot greek god boy from school

Have you ever given money to a homeless person?
of course!

Have you ever run over an animal?
What is your favorite cereal?
right now... special k strawberry

Have you ever had an Oreo with peanut butter?
What are you doing right at this moment?
oh nothing maybe answering this damn survey question

Do you think its right for straight guys to get their tongue pierced?
what the hell kind of question is this? Who made this survey??

Where's your favorite place to be?

What's your favorite song?
i dont commit to favorites; they change so erratically

Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker?
Have you ever thrown shoes on a telephone wire?
Have you ever been skinny dipping?
Have you ever been arrested?

Do you dream in black and white?
Finally a good question!! Yes!! All the time!!!!! I thought it was normal, but I guess not...

Do you talk in your sleep?
oh yeah i totally no if i talk in my sleep
Do you snore?
Are you a redneck?

Funniest thing you heard all day?
hahaha jessica trying to open her juice

Have you ever gotten a mosquito bite on your face?
is this seriously a question right now?

What are you afraid of?
what your next question would be if this wasn't the last

Would you shave your head if a family member asked you to because they had cancer?
for the awareness maybe.. not for the notoriety

What would you do if the doctor told you that you were pregnant?
go back to med school buddy

Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?
who dat

Are you good at hiding your feelings?

Are you wasting your time on someone?

Explain the lasy time you threw up:
Sinus infection. I was in misery.

Last thing that made you cry:

Do you have a bad temper?

Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?

How many funerals have you been to in your lifetime?
only a few... which i am thankful for

How often do you think about suicide?
I'm not weak enough to consider suicide.

What is your deepest fear?
the new world order scares me

Do you REALLY love all your family?
i dont not really love them if thats what you're asking...

What do you want to believe in?

Do you have a secret crush on someone?
Yes. Greek looking boy at my school. You will be mine,you hot ass scholar.

Are you proud of who you are?
if im not how can i expect others to be

Do you feel alone even in crowded rooms?

What is the worst thing a person could do to you and still be forgiven?
I always forgive

You're dying in 10 seconds, what are your last words to your best friend?
I love you. Do it all. Do everything. For me. Remember not to waste your time. I love you.

...your worst enemy?
ceases to exist

Do you care if people hate you?
it's whatever. I don't really give a shit anymore.

Freedom or safety?
Freedom. don't conform.

Think of a random person, and give them a message here, no names:
You are your biggest problem. Get off your ass and do something productive.

Has a song ever made you cry?

A book ever made you cry?

Is the world crumbling to pieces?

Name on moment where you couldn't control your rage:
Hahaha, when i was 8 I hit mary on the back and left a red hand mark. She cried. I remember I thought I was "snapping"

Name one moment where you sincerely wanted to just die:

For the last one, just say anything you want, anything at all:
you are mind fucking me again. you're cold.
my contacts are dry, they're becoming blurry...

Friday, February 11, 2011

Ay man let him go!

Today didn't go as planned.
Still overwhelmingly proud of us all.

1. I've never eaten a hot cheeto.
2. I can't whistle.
3. I like messing around with kazoos.
4. I love writing in general; poems especially.
5. My two front teeth are partly fake.
6. Tumblr bugs the shit out of me.
7. I don't tend to waste my time on most people anymore; I've learned my lesson.
8. I don't tell one person everything.
9. I don't really know what "everything" is now that I think of it...
10. I hate feeling over estimated.
11. I forget things easily.
12. My room is almost always repulsingly messy.
13. I don't really have a type. I just know who I like and who I don't like. Simple as that.
14. I love playing video games.
15. I am super lazy when it comes to everyday tasks.
16. I can never seem to get enough sleep. I am always tired.
17. Most girls bug the living shit out of me.
18. I love a good movie and discussion (about the movie or related topics).
19. I am obsessed with homemade cookie dough.
20. I think rite aid's and baskin robin's chocolate chip icecream can't be beat.
21. I am not a big fan of cakes.
22. I only wear 3/4 pairs of jeans.
23. I never envision(ed) myself with lots of money. Never really stoke me as crucial.
24. I have to put my socks on before I get dressed. I hate when my feet get dirty or stuck in my jeans.
25. Today someone said:
"You wouldn't go for anyone in your class, would you?"
"That sucks."
26. Crunch and Munch: Toffee edition = crack.
27. I convinced my mom to pull me out of school for a "doctors appointment" once so I could nap. Good times.
28. I don't cry often.
29. I am competitive.
30. I love taboo and spoons.
31. I would say I'm tired of being alone, but I can't picture myself in a relationship. The excessive dependency grosses me out. Although I have found no one competent, therefore, my opinion is biased.
32. Hot boys. Sexy boys. Charming boys. Boys who smell good. Talented boys. Smart boys.
33. All you need is something to separate yourself from the rest of us losers. What makes you a different kind of loser.... an original loser? That is the question.

I will wake up when I want to wake up, one day. As for now I have to sleep with the dogs. Night bitches.

34. Freedom

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Pep rally tomorrow.
It all comes down to this.
At least I don't have to do any homework tonight....
Time to cross the ts and dot the is so I can just get up and go.

I knew I rocked that essay.
I (secretly) love her.
Haters goin hate.
I pulled a freakin 3.6.
Hell yeah.
..................HELL YEAH.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011


I am going to pass out.
Right now, rye quick.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

I am extremely tired.
I am extremely busy.
I have a homework.
I am just happy some of this will soon be off my plate.
I honestly think Lipsync is fun, just extremely stressful!
This Friday is it.
We can do this.
I can do this.

Regarding School:
Schedule changed. I like it.
I don't really hangout with many people from last year... (if any)
Funny how people change.
I can't stand girls...
I have met a lot of awesome new people....actually not that many, but a few!
If there is one lesson I have learned while growing up is that Friendship is purely commitment.
No commitment, no friendship.
The end.
No matter how honest, or how loyal, or how thoughtful, or how helpful, you think you are..... when it comes to friendship you get what you give. And if you don't get what you give, that person is not worth your time or they are too good for you. (If they put in more effort, and get nothing in return.. don't make excuses)
Friends don't "drift".
Friends don't "grow apart".
These are the excuses we create when we let a good friendship or an unwanted friendship go.
I do not have many friends, (real friends).
Those that I do have, I cherish. I thank. I owe a good portion of my happiness to.
Stop making excuses or move the fuck on.
I have nothing more to say.

Sunday, February 6, 2011


Getting better.
Your throat clears.
Your voice slowly returns to normal.
You're able to make phone calls and laugh again.
You don't black out.
Eat all the dairy you want.
You can breathe with no trouble.
Your weight slowly retreats back to normal.
You feel the strength coming back.
Sleep well.
You are getting better.