Monday, January 31, 2011


Being sick.
Goosebumps all over your body.
You start making zombie noises.
You walk slow, if you walk at all.
Constant and random sweating.
You are hot one minute, freezing the next.
Your throat burns after throwing up.
You are dizzy.
Not sure what to do with yourself..
Your fever progresses.
You are in misery.
Being sick.

You want to be dressed in poetry

There is no one......
Hahaha, whatever.
Seriously, what.ever.
I feel so idle from life.....
What life?
At this point, I am just killing time.... waiting. learning. absorbing.
Nothing memorable.
Nothing essential.
Nothing great.
Nothing horrible.
I am not sad about anything, maybe just disappointed that everything is so short lived..

I think I got the 24 hour bug or something else equally as sketchy...
Today's sickness was crazy. I felt as if I were going to die.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

It is funny how everyone acts like they can't do shit.
How long before we realize talent and character is all someone has...
Step it the fuck up man kind.
Confidence is sexy.

In other news,

Monday, January 24, 2011

This is the first time in my life where I am actually too busy, and don't care if something happens with a boy. Whatever happens, happens. I am young and have a compacted schedule, I have no time to be dwelling over bullshit.

fuck photographers and their petty shit
trying to pretend they own their shots
photography is an angle of life
photographers catch life in their polaroids and snapshots
a picture is worth a thousand words
and those words are not the photographer's
a photographer could never own a picture
owning an angle of life is like saying you own the air
everyone is open to it but just because you inhale a breathe at that time,
you are king.
maybe if you live in a fictional era, filled with fictional places, waiting for fictional rulers, you could be king...
but until then,
bow down.

I had liked it once, but once was not now.

We can do this Steelers.

Today was pure hard work.
My back hurts.
I do not think I will be able to paint again.....ever.
I feel like fainting after inhaling all of those stupid ass fumes all day.
People are useless.
Linda and I got the job done. [She is my new best friend]
I don't think I would have been able to survive today without ya. :)
Janky peeps are abundant these days.
Jenny and Aileen were crazy at work with the costumes. I don't sympathize though, they had chairs.....(lucky bitches).
I am going to chug a water bottle, take a shower, and then pass out.
Enjoy your not-sore backs everybody!
Forever yours, Michelle.
P.S. GO STEELERS!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Baby I got needs that you can't cure

People are so inconsistent.
It is human nature to give up.
It is human nature to stop caring.
It is human nature to push away those you need most.
I am so thankful for my friends who give human nature a run for its' money.
Those who are there when you need help or are in vulnerable state are much more valuable and worth your time then those who come and go.

Today is work.
Tomorrow is work.
In between I have to find time to study.
Then finals week.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

I suck. We all suck.
I know that.
You know that.
We all know that.
The end.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

I am so unbelievably busy.

Notice how "Boys" and "Sleep" are not on that list ^.
In all honestly, I want sleep more than anything.
I've been running on three hours of sleep the last 2 consecutive days and I'm starting to have micro-naps again..
If someone asked me if I were healthy, and I said yes, I'd be lying...
Micro-naps and hallucinations are horrible for you.
I'm tired.
Still have homework.
Today was a bust.
When is summer?

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

At least I'm doing something remotely fun.... if only it wasn't tedious and frustrating.
I'm so anal when it comes to editing media.

This is my Tuesday night.

Sunday, January 16, 2011


I forgot to say I'm better now.
Don't take any medicine...ever... and you'll heal twice as fast as someone who does.
Have you ever heard something so great you just want to cry?
Maybe the 4am could be a contributing factor, but I digress and say I've heard some kick ass music tonight.

Disneyland was refreshing today.

Jack in black.

too fucking old to give a shit
too smart to know that who ever says no is a pussy
doesnt pretend to like what he doesnt
hes an old dog, keepin up with the cool cats
not trying to be hip though,
he's hip by doing so.
speaks his mind because if he didnt he would turn to dust.
tells a story,
gives a lecture.
sites a poem,
claps a respect.
feels no superiority, just is.
wears the clothes of his time, a button up and tie
dreams of no one, just sighs
to the flow
of the con-fused teenagers
he learns that nowadays material is everything
ties his shoes in the mornings
wipes his glasses clean
and walks out the door,
no thoughts in between.

Inspiration at its' weirdest.....
Dreading homework and nerves.
I don't remember weekends going by this fast...

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Almost over this cold :)
Was able to go to OCFF.

Saturday, January 8, 2011

My eyes burn.
I love the Gipsy Kings!

Friday, January 7, 2011

Thursday Night / Friday Morning

I feel sick.
This would be the one time out of the whole year that I get sick...
I've been studying for the science test tomorrow for awhile now; I deserve a shower and some sleep.
Dance practice was cute today. :)
Tomorrow is Friday!!!

I feel... miserable.
I want... pretzel mnms and cookie dough.
If only... I would be getting more sleep tonight.
I'm looking forward to... eating soup tomorrow.
I'm thinking... that if I stay in tomorrow night my body might be able to shake this.
I'm disappointed... I'll be missing hurdles tomorrow morning.
I hope... 2011 is great.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

`You will get me out of your thoughts in a week.'

`Out of my thoughts! You are part of my existence, part of myself. You have been in every line I have ever read, since I first came here, the rough common boy whose poor heart you wounded even then. You have been in every prospect I have ever seen since -- on the river, on the sails of the ships, on the marshes, in the clouds, in the light, in the darkness, in the wind, in the woods, in the sea, in the streets. You have been the embodiment of every graceful fancy that my mind has ever become acquainted with. The stones of which the strongest London buildings are made, are not more real, or more impossible to be displaced by your hands, than your presence and influence have been to me, there and everywhere, and will be. Estella, to the last hour of my life, you cannot choose but remain part of my character, part of the little good in me, part of the evil. But, in this separation I associate you only with the good, and I will faithfully hold you to that always, for you must have done me far more good than harm, let me feel now what sharp distress I may. O God bless you, God forgive you!'
I must regretfully, but honestly admit that my first day of 2011 was spent doing homework.
(still being spent doing homework actually..)
Because I procrastinated and must now cram, cram, cram, homework in the last few hours of break I have left.
Cheers to being a teenager....