Sunday, October 31, 2010

Everybody Scream


Say it once
Say it twice
Take a chance
Roll the dice

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Reverse psychology

I live for the weekends.
I'm tired.
I love Carolina.
Dressed up today / first time mc-ing an event. :)
I don't feel like doing homework...ever.
The fact that we have semester grades wills me to much time to slack off.
Whatever.
Moving into a house this weekend!
Sweet.
I'm super excited for Homecoming weekend!! I have a really good feeling it's going to be awesome..
Carolina's birthday is the 1st. Meme.
Sleeping in is going to be the life of me.
Naps are the life of me.
I can't wait to move into the house. I need that shit.
Fuck that old shit I'm on new things.
Rethinking what matters in life.
Thinking about what I want to do in life.
What I really need to get there.
In regards to school I guess.... some of the classes I'm going to be able to take, I'm not sure I will. Not because it's to hard. Because I want to have a life. And I don't need AP chemistry or what have you; I know I'm not going to take a career in anything where science/math are crucial elements. Hell no. I like creative writing. I like leading a group of people. I like running meetings. I like making videos. I like the outdoors. I like having free time. I like hot boys. I like traveling. I like making people think. I like running around being crazy. I like napping. I like acting. I like dancing. I like sleeping in. I like shooting zombies and terrorists with my friends. I like versatility. I like music. I like freedom.
I don't need to make a lot of money. I'm not so sure I want to go to some big university. I'm not willing to spend all my energy on school. I'm not willing to waste my time taking classes in subjects I'm not going to pursue. I'd rather use my energy on something I actually take interest in.


I see you.
You smile.
I'm busy.
You don't hold it against me.
Your eyes are hidden, but I already know.
This answer needs no explanation.
I knew I'd hear from you the minute I forgot you were there.
That was your plan.
I complied consciously.
You think you've got the upper hand.
How long until you find out..
I see you.

Tension lingers in the air.
We try avoiding it.
It's everywhere.
Attraction is undeniable.
Hormones rage.
No self control.
The animals released from their cage.
They're everywhere.
No turning back.
The beats are ready to be played.
Head to heart.
Heart to chest.
The silence said the rest.
It's everywhere.

Saturday, October 23, 2010


Busy being busy.
What else is new?
I need some love.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Life. People around me don't know what's going on, but they look at me like they do. And when they find out what's really happening, they become a different species. No comfortable place to be, that's home to me... People around you 24/7. There is no privacy here. No privacy where you need it most....from the people you need it most. The bathroom doesn't even have a lock. Not knowing when you're going to get out; if you're going to get out. Not even giving a shit anymore... No place to think. Problems and pets and smoke lingering from the last people to sleep in the bed you're sleeping in haunts the room. There is no where to run. Becoming a burden on people's doorsteps already, I can't even ask to move in somewhere. Homework gets harder and harder to start because all I want to do is sleep. Things that seemed to have so much meaning, things that used to be so important, don't have much significance anymore. Trying to find motivation everywhere I go. I have so much more sympathy for everything now. A different view on life, and I'm not even out yet.. Little things seem so much bigger now. How a hug from a cute boy can make my day, to one my bestfriends pushing my head into the ground saying "lay down bitch" because I made a point (so funny), to hearing someone make in a funny accent say "im a the manager", to not having play rehearsal, to not having to give up my lunch to make a up a quiz, to not having to take the math test because I didn't study for it. People who shouldn't care do, and people who should care don't. Life.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Is it my turn yet?


Haven't had the time to blog... my favorite thing to do.
To sum it up:
School/homework = time consuming.
Money = been creating boundaries.
Distance = I don't get to see some of my best friends often....ever.
Since I haven't been able to write here, I write in a notebook during school (when I'm drifting off or can't think because teases are on my jock :,( ) I'll type one of my entries out on here soon because blogspot is special to me...

Since I don't have time to catch you up on everything, I'll start with today.

What sticks out to me right now about these past 24 hours... Can I just say how much I hate being teased.................................. Funny how I'm listening to "already taken" right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :( :( :(



Can I get some single boys; I'm no home wrecker. Kthanks. (As I cry...)


I've been hanging out with the JJs lately.. Oh how I'd like a week of no school so I can accomplish everything I need to accomplish, and see everyone I need to see. I really am missing a lot of some really important people in my life, and I'd like to diminish all of these feeling as soon as possible.

________

(Events are purely inspiration--- I'm not physco)

Feelings being smothered by morals.
Oh how sweet I see the prize to be.
I wonder if I'll ever be good enough.
Take time out of the day
just to make sure I'll be thinking about you as you walk away.
You play me just right
your touch keeps me here
I wouldn't dare to move a muscle unless it was so I could feel yours
Others jumping to conclusions around us
And I wonder if I'll ever be good enough.
I look for an escape route. Found one.
Don't move.
Focus on you.
Physically deprived...
Beggars can't be choosers.
As I listen to trey songz I could swear he was there.
Please help me....
My hormones are uncontrollable.
Now that is something which is obviously mutual............
Mutual feelings?
I feel like crying again.
We are nothing but two teenagers begging for attention.
Attention we can return.
Favors, that's all.
That's all.
Your body's talking and I'm loving what it says.
That's all.

Monday, October 11, 2010

Linda

I love how you love Mondays...




You better go to homecoming. I'm going alone as of right now.... single and sad.

Friday, October 1, 2010

Wings


Too tired for my own good.
Too mature for my own good.
Too understanding for my own good.
Too full for my own good.
Too honest for my own good.
Too witty for my own good.
Too lazy for my own good.

You still want to be friends? Because I'm free...

Free.
Free as can be.