Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Two words:

Summer. Over.
























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The taste lingers laced with a poison which was labeled 'bittersweet'.

Monday, August 30, 2010

Phone conversations with old friends,


I forget how much I love them sometimes....

Don't take anyone for granted. Live and Learn.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Where'd all the signs go?

I don't know where I am.

I really do not know. I need something.




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Bonfire today, :).
Positive people. Positive vibes. Positive outcome.
I missed those kids.

Gryffindor FTW

GRYFFINDOR:

[x] You’ve never done illegal drugs.
[x] You have a lot of friends.
[] You get along with everyone.
[] You haven’t made fun of someone for at least two months.
[] You love soccer.
[] You love baseball.
[x] You’re into writing and art.
[x] Favorite music genre is pop rock.
[x] You believe in “innocent until proven guilty” theory.
[x] Abortion is wrong.
[x] The war against Iraq is unneeded.
[] One of your favourite colours is red or gold.
[x] Good grades at school.
[x] One of the worst things you can do is lie.
[x] You plan on going to college/university.
TOTAL: 10

HUFFLEPUFF:
[] You’re content with mostly everything in your life right now.
[x] You laugh a lot.
[] You like to follow trends.
[] Politics suck.
[x] You love to swim.
[] Water polo is awesome.
[] Pink is one of your favorite colors.
[] Black is morbid & depressing.
[] Michael Jackson is talented as a musical artist.
[x] You’re an optimist.
[] You’re completely straight-edge.
[] You’re very emotional.
[] Rap, R&B, & hip-hop is your favorite music genre.
[] You don’t believe in going steady at a young age.
[x] You’ve made fun of at least one person this week.
TOTAL: 4

RAVENCLAW:
[] You’re depressed to a certain extent.
[] You love to read.
[x] You appreciate theatre & arts.
[] Sports suck.
[] You’re shy.
[x] Hate is completely unneeded.
[x] Loyalty is the MOST important thing in a relationship.
[x] You like Indie music.
[] Every once in awhile you have little anger outbursts.
[] Lying is sometimes okay.
[] Blue is one of your favorite colors.
[] Serious is better than funny.
TOTAL:4

SLYTHERIN:
[] There’s at least one person you hate.
[x] Basketball is a good sport.
[] (American) Football is amazing.
[x] Black is a cool color.
[x] You’ve lied about something serious.
[x] You’re a very deep person.
[] You have considered suicide.
[x] Very loyal.
[] You like metal.
[] They make school seem more important than it is.
[] You’re scared to grow up.
[] You’ve done drugs in the past month.
[] Anger is one of your primary feelings.
[] You have trust issues.
[] Guilty until proven innocent.

TOTAL : 5

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Just got home. Tired. Have a rough draft to do...

Woke up late

Whoops. Marys is in the bathroom. Hurry up.

Lottery Ticket

I missed Carolina so much!
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It's almost 3am.. I have to get up at 7..
Tommorow:
Asb. I need to get my rough draft done for my essay. Clothes shopping. Sleep.

Ugh, I love life. We don't know how good we have it. Why be sad, when we all have the capability of being happy. Depression rhymes with Impression. (I should make shirts that say that) Spread Love.

Don't be jealous of someone until you've put in as much hard work, dedication, passion into something as they have. How do you think they were able to get to where they are now? Spread Respect.

That's it. Relax.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

The future's mine to claim.

I have a lot going on now, compared to the past anyway...

If this is love, then I would run far, run fast, from me.
Forgive me if I leave the keys.

Summer has been busy. Only a few days left till school. I still have so much to do.
Its now coming to my attention, or should I say, I've now met the reality that summer has reached an end, and school is already here. I have done a lot this summer, but I do not feel satisfied... at all.

I need to put together an asb folder tonight because I won't have enough time tomorrow morning...

I have to get up at 6:30... lame.
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Tonight was fun. I've missed Julio, Vince, and Sam. :)
Sleep soon.
I almost finished my book. Only two chapters left.. Yes. Yes. Yes.

I have a few decisions to make. Goodnight.
"Ew."
You think to yourself as you breathe in. You want to plug your nose, but the moment right before your fingertips touch your nostrils, you stop. You have smelt it before. You realize that it was one of those smells you used to be immune too..(A smell like your house, or your favorite perfume). You want to cry. The smell you were just disgusted by, was one that had brought you so many memories before. Brings back thoughts of someone who was not around anymore. You are ashamed of yourself because you would give anything to go back to when you were immune. You would give anything to have back the smell that your body naturally learned to love. You would give anything to go back to that smell that you learned to love. To go back to that time you were able to learn to love.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Rethinking

everything.
What's worth it?
Who's worth it?
Who do I trust?
Who do I miss?
Who will I always come back to?
Who do I want to be friends with?
Who wants to be friends with me?
Who do I matter to?
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Sitting in silence, jogging to try to catch up, when I need to be sprinting to cut it close. Things I just remembered I had to do. Things I should have done that are now going to get in the way of the things I have to do right now. I am so excited for school. I really am, especially when I finish everything I need to finish.. People are so interesting! I am excited for new.. everything. I want it all. Maybe I will find someone who thinks like me, or prioritizes like me. Maybe I will find someone I can't stand. I will study them. I will establish a better idea of who I want to be around, and who I do not want to be around. Who's shy, who's not, and who's annoying. How do people react outside of their comfort zones? I'm excited for the challenge. I'm excited to be pushed maybe a little bit too hard. What's my limit, really? Do I have a limit? New behaviors I've never seen before.. I'm sure someone will catch me off guard. :)
I don't think I'm asking for too much..... all I want is a little adventure.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Shits gone down.

Where would I be without friends or places to go or people I can talk to?

I'm tired of this.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Someone get me emarosa's CD. KThanx.










DO WORK.

Monday, August 2, 2010

Finally.

Don't know what this is. Just is.


You are just a pretty picture from here. You are going no where. Unless you count your next hook up. Otherwise you are looking to no future. Your heart beats cold. You know it. You know it all. People call you brutal. That is them trying to be nice. Don't know who you are. Just know of you. You hide your tears behind shut doors and thick eyeliner. You time your beatings just right, to keep the mystery intact. You never succeed at anything you try. You quit. Mind tricks move along with talks to tell how much you don't care. The longer we go on, we start to see you. That is when you run. Leave the scene and the knife bloody. Still, the dead body has more feeling than you.
You are numb.
That is it.
Gone.
No turning back.
Life is short, but you are ready to give in.
Your days peel to nothing.
Your life has lead to nothing.
You sit alone.
You talk to lungs, but only for the sound. You find no harm in harm anymore. The time on your watch says 'Stop'. Your life turns to gray. Eyes stop looking. The button at your door is now at 'not pushed'. You are forgotten. Time took you away. Regrets swallowed you whole. Types of us all. Hate of us all. We all know the things said behind our backs we just decide when to turn around. When to confront? Acknowledge everything, before everything stops to acknowledge you. Give yourself a reason to breathe. Let your passion burn stronger than anyone you know. Then find someone who burns brighter than you, and then either A) burn brighter or B ) marry them.
Cheers.