Tuesday, April 28, 2009

I did some research,

"And he shall make all, both little and great, rich and poor, freemen and bondmen, to have a character in their right hand or on their foreheads: And that no man might buy or sell, but he that hath the character, or the name of the beast, or the number of his name. (Apocalypse Chapter 13: 16-17)"

"Here is wisdom. He that hath understanding, let him count the number of the beast. For it is the number of a man: and the number of him is six hundred sixty-six. (Apocalypse Chapter 13: 15-18)"

"It is truly, My children, a war of the spirits. It is a time for the separation of the sheep from the goats. You are all now being tested, and if you fail you shall receive the mark of the beast. And if you pass through this crucible, you shall emerge with the sign of the living God upon your forehead, recognizable to all who are your brothers in the light." -Our Lady, March 15, 1978

"You have been asked to wear a sacramental about your neck. Now I will explain why, My children. I have warned you of the unseen evil forces about you. I have cautioned you that your human eyes cannot see this. But it exists and is as solid in their world as you are on your earthly plane. Know this, that there are two camps now on earth: Lucifer on one side and the road to Heaven and its followers on the other. You have all been marked. There are two signs now: the mark of the beast and the mark of the living Christ.
Recognize the signs of the times, My children. The war is on." - Our Lady, March 25, 1972

You can do some reading, here:

P.S. I won't get one, stupid private bankers.
So I never really finished that blog ^^ but if I didn't post what I had I know I wouldn't add anything to it so here I am, I researched a lot more but I'm too lazy and I don't want to scare anybody or put up the wrong stuff. Plus it was mostly quotes anyway.

I kind of hate freezing my ass off every morning but honestly I like being cold.
I'd pick being cold over hot any day.
This week is going by way to slow.
I was absent Monday and the end of the school year is to close for comfort.
I can taste summer.
I'm kind of giving in to 2ndsemester/4quarter drag.
But, I won't fall back far.
Plus I'm going to have to pick up the pace again for campaigning.
Yeah, running for President, any volunteers for my campaign?
I think Pendergrass is scared, or she just really wants to work with me, either way I'm not backing down to vice, sorry. It's not even that I would mind being vice, it's just because it would be really tacky if I were to change my plans after telling people President. I mean if she runs for vice, sure I'll be her running partner but I'm not going to change my plans for her.
I KNOW J. Phan is scared of me because she thought I was running for vice, so bad I think she's thinking of going for secretary.
As for Kendra..........not worried.
Dude, people might be over estimating me, and I don't want that. That's why I haven't been telling that many people about me running yet.. I'd rather be under estimated and surprise, than be over estimated and let down.
Hm.. I think Maxwell is telling people already, she loves me.
Even though no one takes this seriously, I just imagined making wristbands that said my name or something, that'd be tight................................

I'm open to advice.

-I don't know what I'm doing Friday.
-I suck at going to sleep early.
-I can put my head back and fall asleep really fast, so if you want my attention keep me interested.
-I hate using ttyl,omg,lol,and etc.
-I don't know if I want a birthday party.
-I'm pretty much guaranteed a car for my 16th birthday because my uncle is a grease monkey.
-I used to only eat choc. chip cookie dough ice cream because I was psycho, and I used to only get regular lemonade every time I went to a restaurant until I couldn't taste it anymore.
-Even though you can't see it, I have a cleft chin. Maybe the next time you see me you can feel it. haha .
-I know you type the way you do, you talk the way you do, to show you don't care. If I look at you, your whole persona is "I don't give a shit." Makes me laugh.
-I always say I have to cut my nails but I always can't find the clippers, so I borrow some.
-I love science! Most of it, especially this year, I find interesting. I do not want to learn about stupid ass physics.
-I really want Bataglia because she already likes me, and Garret already hates me.
-I am kind of a bad swimmer the last time I checked, and I'm going to join surf club. I hope I don't drown.
-I'm excited to see what being in the water with a wet suit feels like.
-I'm excited to see how other people do compared to me, I think I have only one advantage and that's I'll probably have more endurance than most.
-Leadership and PAL secretly hate each other. Not really individually just in general.
-If I take naps I can't take them in my bed because I can't get up.
-I'm not so fragile anymore.
-I can't forge signatures, I just can't. Sorry.
-I know my place, just like you do. We never are told, by the third practice you know.
-I want to see the boy in the striped pajamas. Stupid Bruno, fag.

So tight.

Shit's going down.

Monday, April 27, 2009

I am in a gingerbread coffin,

This weekend was boss.

asbestas is my fav.

I have so much to be grateful for! I love life.
My mission right now is to strengthen my relationship with Jesus, I'm not embarrassed to say either. I'm interested in a lot of things right now. Have all of you heard about the mark of the beast? Pretty crazy, it's in the bible too, and that's when Jesus is supposed to come and save us. Plus in 23 minutes Jesus told Bill, "Tell them I'm coming very, very soon." If you haven't heard about it I think it's pretty cool that's it our generation. From what I've heard it's supposed to happen in like 5-10 years. I was talking with Carolina, almost seriously and we were like what are chances he would come to California. If not we think he's coming to America this time. I think I'll do research about it late, stay tuned.

P.s. I think I'm going to ask my Mom to get me a Bible.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Crank the gin.

I'm such a faggot. I love pasta. Fun.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

I'm a little a late and you're a little early, but we're still on time.

Don't let my glad expression, give you the wrong impression.

Rugby thing tonight.
I don't what time it is, and I don't know what I'm bringing.
So I hope this goes more smoothly than I'm imagining.
OMGOSH!! I'm only on the fifth chapter of Bound to lose, Destined to win; and I'm already in love. I like it 10546873154x better than 90&23 minutes so far. Yay, I'm so excited. I have been secretly reading it under my desks. I also fell asleep in Math again, but what's new.

I won most fearless!! Unexpected. Yes, this season was worth while.
I'm happy.
Now I have homework to congratulate me. Boo.
Spoons! I love Dalena.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

I want to be great like Elvis.

I took a very long nap today.
All I remember is Mary trying to bribe me with a caprisun and my mom with ice cream, in efforts to wake me up. What can I say, it worked. See I do well with positive enforcement, Mary.
I feel asleep in Math today. Shout out to my buddy Steve for waking me up, haha.
That was the only time I was cold today, excluding ten minutes ago when I ran through the sprinklers and cut my foot. Stupid Mary.
I finished my homework, breaking a sweat under interrogation lights. I doused off a few times, but pushed myself through it with the prize of sacking out after completion.
I learned something today, in Science.
I'm almost finished with 23 minutes in hell. Not as good as 90 minutes, but I like the way the author wrote this one, smart.
I'm excited to move on to the other books.
See, I do like reading, when I read something I'm interested in.
Other than that, you won't catch me reading to kill a mocking bird / twilight.
I'm excited to attend Kimberly's confirmation.
It's Jen's birthday this Friday, with her birthday party on Saturday @ 3. I hope I can go. I mean I could, but I don't want to drop my other plans.
Pasta Party banquet for rugby this Thursday. Dang 15 big one's from both of us.
Dang what are they getting him?!
I hope this year's banquet is better than last year's.
I mean last year's wasn't that bad, but I was disappointed.
School was better today, still lame.
Today was freaking hot.

I love Next Blog.

Monday, April 20, 2009

Your gun, I've gone insane.

I'm boiling guys.
Today was hotter than yesterday.
I played frisbee golf in pe, dominated.
The sun sucked all of my energy right out from under me.
School was lame.
Same old, same old, same old shit.
At least we only have one more quarter to sit through. Gayness.
I'm not sure if I'm going to run for president. I probably will though.
Someone give me summer please.
To keep me up, I'm going to join surf club.
Hopefully it doesn't cost that much, and hopefully they aren't that strict on the requirements.
Bahaha, Rugby's over so I'll need something else to keep me on my feet, just thought of that.
Gayness, Csts are coming up. Boo.
I admire guys that dress nicely.
Go them.

Every time I watch that movie, I want to be the one sitting in the chair. Always.

Haha, Armageddon.. Nough said.

I freaking love, that thing you do, shoo cute.

I thought these were kinda cool:

(I just had to ^)

David Cassidy kind of reminds me of an older version, warped, never shout never.

toddwellswhitewater.blogspot.com, gotta remember that. haha

Okay I'm done.

You never know what you'll find when you explore, the "next blog" button.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

My heart stopped beating.

Spring break is over, and I'm sad fags.
School tomorrow everybody, has come to soon.
Today was freaking hot..

really hot.

Well rugby season has come to an end, some how, it's not as sad as last years. I'm just sad I'll be missing Rogers at championships. Already excited for next season. I'm going to miss being in shape, but I'll enjoy a break.

Saw was pretty good. Rocky's cousin's friend is the one that broke her femur thanks to Diana haha, she said she was "Attacked by some Asians girls." Small world. I guess she was in a wheelchair for three months. She was playing soccer the same time she was playing with Fullerton.

So, I want to jump in a pool right now.

I went to church today and I saw Christie and Kimberly getting communion. I went to look for them afterwards but I had no luck. Next week.
-I know you said you would go to church with me next week, but you've said that before and I feel like you are show boating it, some how. I wish you would just go to church to go. Not just because you felt bad that I was big enough to go by myself. I guess any way to get you to go is good enough. Then maybe you'll go to go. We'll see.
-My grandma grabbed my hand, pulled me in, and whispered to me to pray for my family and their relationship with God. She also told me she was proud of me. It made me feel good. I love her. She also mentioned a couple times something to the sort of I won't be here next year, for easter, and I hope she's not right. I feel like she still has something she's meant to do. I have a feeling I'm going to help her. I also have a feeling it has to do something with my family. I take her for granted sometimes. Then I think about it, and I'm grateful for her, she's my last grandparent and sometimes I feel close to her, a silent bond. I don't know. I can't explain it. Something is there, though, I can feel it.
-Thanks for the shirt. Your promise was kept, I admire you for that. My arms are open, but it's your move.
-Rides in your car are always the best.........funny....happy.
-When I sweat, I smell good because I smell like my deodorant.

The end of spring break feels like flushing a fish you've had for a while down the toilet. I'll miss you, but I'm not going to cry about it, and I'm ready to move on to a puppy, (summer).

Saturday, April 18, 2009

I don't blame you for being you.

Spring break weekend playas,
So I found out Jessica's mom reads my blog. Hi Becky! =)
Today was so hot.
To much rugby in the sun.
Hm.. my wrists hurt.
The show was kinda lame, but I had fun.
I mean ... it's what evers.
I had the most fun hanging out before/after.
Everyone has to love shockers right?
I guess today was okay. Went by pretty quick.
I. am . so . tired.
I am in the midst of reading 23 minutes in Hell.
Whoa, I'm to tired for this. I just thought I wouldn't breaking the posting streak.

Someone take this pre-wrap off my wrists, and then kiss them and make them all better. Kay, thanks.

Not excited for school. Excited for sleep.


Random note of the day: I almost threw up an everything bagel in the car.
Random haps of this morning: Mary scored a try.
Random haps of tonight: I was so tired I accidentally gave Carolina a kiss on the cheek when I said goodbye to her and I don't know what I did with my hard gummy bears.
Random disappointment: I'm disappointed I don't have more control of my life.
Random encouragement: Thanks for putting your trust in me, and always confiding in me. I don't forget that.

Friday, April 17, 2009

I need a credit card thats got not no limit.

Eighth day of Spring break biatches,
Started off slow, but just needed some help getting off the ground.
Who knew I sucked at Frisbee Golf?
Rhinolicious. Frisbee golfing was fun, running around in the boondock forests, putting my hand in a plant that bites (I still have stingers in my hand), not caring if I won, and laughing along the whole time. Eating, supper, at Lucile's was nice. Gh4 was entertaining. Family Guy was relaxing. Simple, and I had fun.
I don't know what else to say.
Today was ........................... relaxed.



-I'm surprised you stick around, I do have a bad memory. Most people don't.
-I like turning up the music to where it surrounds me, fully. Where I can close my eyes and stop time, even though time keeps ticking. All that matters is nothing matters. It's beautiful. It's easy. It's peaceful. I love it.
-I'm glad you don't get mad when I don't know what to say.
-I don't finish sodas 50% of the time.
-I'm sorry I don't put the cap back on the contact stuff. Get off my back. You talk to me. You're fun.
-I'm starting to care less and less if you like me. If you approve. If you care. You are to stressful. Get off my back. You'll never read this. Relax. Get a job, because I'm doing mine.
-I have a scar on my knuckle. Knuckles used to be my nick name. I kind of miss it, secretly.
-I like dancing with my friends, not at the "dances", typically in cars.
-I like trying to keep up with lyrics to rap stanzas things, I always google the lyrics, typically during sleep-overs.
-I always wished I was gamer, secretly.
-I think it's funny when you cuss.
-When I think, I accidentally am thinking out load. I don't notice until some else does.
-I really only talk to you on a daily basis. No one else is as consistent.
-I like blackouts, a lot. The dark doesn't scare me, especially when I'm with someone. I think blackouts are lucky, adventures meant for reminders.
-I used to stay up at night, get out my sketch book, and "design" dresses. Not typical ones either.
-I wish everyone wouldn't be so stubborn.
-I'm glad your happy. I'm glad we talked. I'm disappointed I don't know you better. I wish our conversations weren't so rare.
-I'm not scared to die.



I'll be your best kept secret, and your biggest mistake.

Seventh day of Spring Break biatches,
Spent wearing Sam's jeans and Carolina's funny.
Who knew Sam could play guitar AND speak Spanish, crazy.
Rugby practice was kind of ...
Played GH4, on career, named the band SIDKNEE. Haha.
"What now devil?!"
No crazy stuff went on today, just a classic kick back.
I'm happy.
We have a game this Saturday, kind of sad because it's kind of pointless.
Spring break is almost over! Wow,
I'm so young.......................................................


-I hope you mean what you say. I know you mean what you say.
-I hope you don't feel neglected because I talk to others more. I still consider you one of my good friends.
-I fall asleep in 30 seconds and never wake up, until I am ready too. I thought everyone was like that.
-I always end up being one of the lasts to finish eating. I don't know why. I don't think I eat slow. [Despite what everyone else says] I think I eat at normal speed and everyone else eats fast.
-I always stay still, sometimes just for a few seconds, sometimes for a few minutes, after I turn off the lights, when Mary sleeps somewhere else and I get the room to myself. I'm not sure why, maybe because I'm scared, maybe because I'm not. Sometimes I think, sometimes I don't. I wait to move, until I'm content, something tells me I am.
-I want an ipod, but I keep telling myself I wouldn't update it a lot. Then again, that's what I said before I made this blog. Then again, I said a lot of things before I made this blog.
-I feel close to you. I barely talk to you.
-You're always up for anything. You'll give anything or anyone a chance. You're quick to judge, though.
-I haven't watched TV in a long, long time. I never watch TV anymore. When I do, it brings back memories.
-I like to think you look at me in question, I'll put up my disguise. If only I had a disguise. I can't be anything more than me, I'm sorry, but you're just going to have to deal.
-I drink out of jugs when no one is looking, well sometimes when Mary looks, but Mary, she doesn't count.
-I don't think you know how funny you are, but maybe you do.
-I can't forget to try to find ways to make you feel special. I knew that would make you happy. As we get to know each other, I'll find more ways, you'll see. Just don't let me give up.
-You know what, never mind on that, don't worry. I won't give up.
-You are like drinking from soda that's been out and open for days. Every one has been there and everyone has done that. Pathetic.
-I don't understand why everyone thinks you are so bad, but I do.
-Everything I found out you said, makes me feel bad, but then it makes me feel better, stronger. I'm not sure.
-I'm always working, even if I'm sleeping. Working to make someone happy.
-I'll take a nap with you, sure. I don't think that's weird, because secretly I've been thinking the exact same thing.
-I'm not as cool as you think I am. I'm just not hiding anything, hiding behind anything. If that's what makes you think I'm special then so be it, otherwise, I'm just this.
-I wish you were more understanding, so I could tell you everything, but I don't think I'm supposed to tell you everything. I have known you all my life. How sad is that?
-"I don't what to do with you, Michelle." Tell me about it..
-I want to give you a never ending hug because you have yet to disappoint me.
-I just just remembered not to spell disappoint with two s'. Go me. I suck at spelling.
-I have moles. Moles, moles, moles. I have a lot of moles.
-I wish I could wink as well/smooth as you, so I could wink at you, to make you feel special.
-The last time I winked at some one, they blushed, had this weird expression on their face, turned around, and walked away. And that, my friend, was just practice. Stupid 7th graders, typical, can't keep up with me.
-I looked into you because came across to be someone that could keep up with me, I was wrong, now, you, try to catch me. Loser. I consider you as a friend.
-Where is this going? What is going? Growing?
-Just you wait and see. Well, I want to be the one to wait and see, but that's not me. Or maybe it is. I guess we'll wait and see.
I am so young........................



Thursday, April 16, 2009

Everybody's got a drug dealer on speed dial,

Sixth day of Spring Break bitches,
No beach for us, but some funny shit went down, maybe some scary shit as well.
I have seen someone blackout/faint right in front of me, seen a scary movie, heard the sounds of hell, witnessed a few possessions, and laughed like humpdidumpdee all in one day.
Sam first arrived with her fruit rollieupies.
We all happy and chill.
Then we decide to bike to Bucks.
That's where the trouble started, brah.
I have never used my legs more, the wind was so bad, and we were riding against it.
Poor Sams, doesn't work out her legs everyday, has a heart condition, and hasn't ridden a bike in years.
So we finally get there and Sams isn't feeling so hot.
She grabs a water bottle and sits down, I order.
We're sitting in this little corner table when her eyes roll back in her head and she freaking collapses on the floor!
Long story short, the paramedics came, they asked me if she was on drugs, and we stuffed her with sugar.
Carolina comes over, gets possessed a few times, and were off to see a haunting.
Dude, never mind this blog turned out to be gay, I can't explain it but uh some, funny shit, FUNNY SHIT.

I had fun. Pulling an all nighter. Catch you later skaters. So many insiders.

Arrrrrrrrrrr you free Saturday night?
I'm an anim- gjagjlahflgahkjhdfahghlrfjglk.
You only do it when I'm around.

&I still have your watch on.


Tuesday, April 14, 2009

I like this watch, maybe I'll keep it.

Fourth and Fifth day of spring break bitches.
DUDE, best kick back ever.
Carolina's place is the best.
Rocky's place is the best.
Even though some creepy shit went down, it was all good.
Let's see, forgetting to eat with Carolina, funny shit..
Dude I have developed a dirty mouth spending more time with C.
Haha, I'm sorry everyone.
Saying dude a lot too, but that's normal.
You lost my bracelet, ='(. I had a feeling you would.
My cell phone works now guys!
Moshing to Dirt Nasty, doing gymnastics, laughing at Kimberly's boyfriend, biking to R's house in like 30 seconds, praying together while biking home, sleeping outside because inside was to hot, eating fudgesicles after R said he didn't like chocolate, beating both of you at war AND slap-jack AND go-fish, running around your house, family guy, laughing at star bucks for an hour [while you wished you had what I was drinking], washing my hands after playing with your hamster, eating your cereal, taking your books and your watch, kicking your blinds, sleeping with no blanks what so ever for the first time, rolling over after you told me to wake up, sharing powerade because we were to lazy to get cups, laughing at your fmls, laughing at your mom's dirty looks, dancing around your house at the sound of not having to go to practice (I still don't know why), getting beat up because I touched the inside of your leg, eating dinner together laughing about everything, running through your garage because we were creeped, and happy while doing all of it.
This no drama shit is the good life.
I just know it's not going to stay like this, it can't, and that's to bad.

Breaking the law, breaking the law.
Tomorrow, beach, body surfing with Sam and C.; Sleepover .

I'm loving life right now, and I hope you are too.


Sunday, April 12, 2009

You cleaned up, found Jesus.

Third day of Spring break biatches,
Merry Easter to everyone first of all.
My Easter wasn't all that great and I have had guilt in my stomach for not going to church, I know it wasn't fully my fault, but I still feel like if I really, really wanted to go I could have gone. I'm trying not think about that though.
I went to upland for my Mexican side of the family celebration.
It was alright.
I think the highlight was throwing these things over hand and getting it, while everyone else was throwing it underhand and missing. Pretty entertaining. The potatoes were pretty good. Uh... I thought the sweatshirt I borrowed, and almost "borrowed" it home, was pretty cute. I got first in Mario Kart a couple times so I'm content. I ate some see's candies. Yum. I caught every egg Mary tossed to me, cracking 3 of them, and let me add Mary sucks at throwing eggs. So double points for me. I schooled any one who came across me on the air hockey table, yeah...that's right...represent. Uh, went by pretty quick.
I miss my phone, and I can tell a lot of you guys miss it too.
Good news though I think it will be paid tomorrow! And Kimberly got her blog back, YAYAYAYYAYAYAYAYA!!!

I wore my Jesus necklace all day, suckers.
I was going to take pictures until Mary forgot the memory card, stupidass. Hehe, I'm only kidding, it is April after all.

Today was pretty fun I must admit but I was hoping on a little more sports. It's all good though, no regrets. Oh I wish I went swimming though, not regretting my decision fully though, ever if I had to jump in all alone.

I think I want an Ipod now.......................

I think I just found some freaking egg yolk in my hair!!!!!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhh shittttttt duuuude.

Any body else going down to Carolina's place tomorrow? Cause the life of the party is going [me].

I miss:
-I miss summer days at your house.
-I miss playing hide and seek with you all night long and not getting tired of it, sneaking out, long talks, and swimming with you.
-I miss stubbing my toe and beating you in foot races.
-I miss thinking your backyard was giant.
-I miss living close to you, and I miss having you when I needed you.
-I miss hugging you.
-I miss screaming screamo songs outside when I would come over to your house.
-I miss sitting in your back yard and roasting marsh mellows at your house, then when everyone was asleep, going back outside and staring at the sky for hours.
-I miss you inviting me every where because you thought I was so surperior.
-I miss riding our bikes @ 3 in the morning and taking turns ding dong ditching.
-I miss being not being as smart as you.
-I miss winning at kickball every game, and getting picked first.
-I miss being able to go where ever I wanted, when ever I wanted, around town.
-I miss when I didn't know what to say back to you.
-I miss not knowing what a blow job was.
-I miss getting up to watch comedy central when no one was awake.
-I miss sneaking out to check out the Christmas presents.
-I miss walking down the hall, and having a library full of books that I could never fully appreciate.
-I miss having more room, and knowing I could walk out in the garage and know you would be there.
-I miss running across the street because I was always excited to see you.
-I miss caring who got the rollie chair.
-I miss telling everyone I hated tootsie rolls.
-I miss beating everyone at hand ball.
-I miss being able to dominate at the monkey bars.
-I miss exagrating so bad I would later get caught.
-I miss making up stories because you had so many.
-I miss having a libray card and running through the halls, and going in that little shop outside, to afraid to ask if they needed help.

But I'm not sad.


Saturday, April 11, 2009

Right now it's killing time.

Second day of Spring break biatches,
Today was a bummer.
We lost the rugby game.
It was so bad.
I hated that game so much.
Freaking A and tomorrow I hope Mary doesn't bail on me.
Then Diana and Linda were Janky.
What's new?
I forgive you guys, but still you were a wii janky.
Someone cheer me up.
-I'm glad to hear your plane didn't crash.
-I want a hug. I have the most fun when were just kicking back at your house. Even if you do pick the worst movies.
-I don't get how your still on the fence with this, you need to choose a side, it's either your responsible or you're not. It's not that simple, but it's not that complicated. You need to toughen up.
-You think you are so good, when really, your worse then some of the new girls.
-I forget you play rugby sometimes.
-I'm sorry I can't be more spur of the moment with you.
-I was disappointed we didn't go because I was really looking forward to hanging out with you. I still love ya though.
-I wonder if you mean what you say, because sometimes I'm not so sure.
-I think you are cute and funny with out trying. We don't see each other a lot and that's to bad because I plan to hold a long, tight friendship with you. Just because you're worth it.
-I don't know what your problem is but I would like to help you.
-I have this feeling that you don't like me, because I always say hi to you, and I always make the effort. That's why I gave up on you. You aren't worth it.
-Sometimes when I'm bored, times like this, I think about everything, play out the different possibilities, and smile. I later am sad because what I want, that can't happen right now.
-[Part of the many reasons] I go to church, in hopes, one day, you'll come with me.
-What now? I can't worry about anything, must wait, and what needs to happen, maybe what I want to happen, will happen. I just am going to have to get used to waiting.
-I have no idea what I want to do in life. I know I have a lot of time, but everyone I know already has everything figured out, at least something. As for me, I don't have anything. I think your here to help me figure that out.
-I'm scared you'll get tired of me, because that's what happens every time I spend to much, care to much, some thing happens where the surprise, is lost, the effort, is lost. Prove me wrong, please.
-I know you'll forget about me sometime.
-In class I purposely make you happy, because I see defeat in your eyes. Always new there was something different about you.
-I don't know why, but I always end up being perceived as the life of the party with you. I don't mind. I just haven't figured it out yet.
-You latch on to a new set of friends every year. I wonder what you'll do when you can't hold on any longer. I remember praying for you one time. I thought I was so clever, getting mad at you. I had no idea what I got myself into.
-I should of joined you, I made a mistake. I won't make it twice. Mark my words.
-I hope I don't hurt any one, because you remind me of something happy. Even though you are quite sad.
-You cry every game and it depresses me, please stop.
-I like when you sleep some where else because I like the feeling of having my own room, and it makes someone else realize I don't need them as much as she thinks I do. I think she's beginning to notice, finally.
-I didn't call you back and now I'm sad.
-You whine so much. Do you realize you whine so much? Cause I do.
-I think you're great.
-I don't know what to do with myself.
-My teeth are whiter now, because in thought of you, I brush my teeth.
-Gay dude, I was looking forward to talking to you, now I feel like I loser, I know you were sorry, though, I don't have anybody else to call who is as interesting as you. =/ Excitement, shot down by disappointment. What else is new. I guess I'll be off to bed then.
-If I embarrass you why don't you just hide me, stupid. Not worth it, sorry, but, no.
-I know "everyone" "loves" me but I want to know what you think of me, really, I want to read your mind.

Love Sam.

Punk ass trippin in the dead of night.

First Day of Spring break bitches,
Consisted of, but no limited to:
Snow White, (was fun to make fun of)
Sour Skittles,
Hard Gummys,
Punching Rocky in the face cause he thought I slept water on his couch,
Falling on the ground laughing in the middle of an isle looking for Quarantine with Carolina,
Running around in Rite aid laughing at Mary's triple scoop,
Spreading knowledge,
Opening the windows and sticking my head out when Rocky wasn't looking because he had the heater on full blast and I couldn't breathe,
Falling asleep for five minutes on Rocky's couch a couple times,
3 hour nap after just waking up,
oven pizza before we left,
watching Carolina stick her feet in a public restroom's sink,
running through wet grass with socks on,
gagging from the smell of Carolina's butter ice cream,
laughing with Rocky and Mary about Snow White's fat ass,


Reminder: I need to get my scarf, hat, and hoodie back.

-I always say we're going to hang out but we never do.
-You think you know me, but you don't. You think you have me all figured out, but you don't. You think I talk to you on aim out of pity, but I don't. You annoy me and I don't even know you. I rip my hair out at the slightest dirty look, remark you give her. But me, I'm not scared of you. And I will put you in your place if I get the chance. You're nice to me, you suck up to me, because I scare you. This I am not used to, but you know better than to say one thing about her when I'm around. I think other people notice you act different around. I think I am the only person you bite your tongue around.
-I'm always happy around you. I like that. =)
-I can't wait to go to the movies with you guys on Saturday.
-Math would be boring with out our table. You always wake me up when I fall asleep. You always scoot closer to my desk because you are scared of ----- to a point where we are sharing desks. I used to always give you paper because you forgot to restock your reply, now I've forgotten to restock and you have returned the favor. I always look forward to be able to telling you anything I want and we know that we won't tell any one because we all aren't friends out side of math class besides the occasional wave. I like it.
-I love PAL because of you guys. I moved tables because I was looking for a breathe of fresh air, it surprised you, but you like it now. I love it now.
-I'm going to miss all of you next year.
-I hope you don't change schools next year. (Linda)
-I know we are most likely not going to the same high school and that bums me out.
-I like eating lunch with you guys better, because I know we will never think about it again, we won't worry about it, but the laughs don't matter. It's still worth it, so I will always jump at the opportunity of grabbing a spot at your table.
-I don't think you noticed I am independent. I'm not a baby.
-We both know we have the same interests and like the same music but we never seem to talk, I wonder why.
-At rugby practice I can tell you are nice to me because of my improvement.
-I think my parents think its weird I talk on the phone with you, doesn't mean I'm going to stop doing it.
-I have a feeling you aren't going to call me like you said you did, to check in, your excuse will be, I wasn't sure because of the time change.
-We know we mean nothing to you.
-I know everyone thinks your shy, but I think you don't like the attention.
-I don't know why you're such a fagot with everything when there are a lot of people around, I know you like the attention, and you don't have enough time for me.
-I will never buy anything from your shop, but it's nice to look.
-I hope we never stop our message because I love having new messages from you.
-You ... unexplainable. All I know is I care about you, and I want to continue being a part of your life.
-I always have a shoulder to lean on, and it's you.
-Even though there were people running around in your back yard, I was comfortable, content, and didn't want to leave.
-I'm sorry I stuck my hip bone in your side, you make me laugh so much, I don't think you know how funny you are.
*Loves ya.


Thursday, April 9, 2009

Aye biatches

I love my Pal kids.
I love Dev.s!
I love Tony!
I love Daniel!
I love Dennis.
I love Christine Ta!
I love Bao.
I love Christie.
I've gotten along better with this group than any other group in my PAL career.
I moved out of my comfort zone and now it pays off.
I love it.

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Practice was like one big burma. I finally endured what it feels like to get to the point where you are so tired, you aren't tired anymore, and then you're happy. I love Sam and Dalena, we were connected at the hip tonight. I still don't have a battery charger, and I haven't gone to pay the bill, so I've been living off my house phone. Oh how I miss unlimited everything! My hands are still numb, so I'm typing slower than usual. I hope we win this Saturday, "The most important game of the season that can make us or break us." I hate to say it but this game is going to decide where we are this season. I was really bummed because I REALLY wanted to do the school play. =( Then I didn't want to waste any more of my time. I'm going to make a few calls tonight. Relax. Tomorrow my break will start for real. During tech. difficulties, I was tired, sick of it all, and needed a hug. The day got better as it went along, kinda. I'll miss you when you go on your trip, secretly, well it was a secret, until now.

-I called your house phone, because I thought it was your cell and your Mom answered. I thought for a mil-second and said, calmly, "Oh, Wrong number, sorry." She replied, "Okay." Click. Now I'm scared to call your cell because I had a vision of her answering the phone again, but I will, soon.
-You better still get me a shirt.
-I could have gotten a big part, if I worked for it.

Dude Easter this Sunday.
Whoa .
Spring break.
Whoa .
Almost 9 o` clock.
Whoa .
Noes Goes.
Whoa .
On a roll.
Sam's arm on three. 1,2,3, "SAM'S ARM!!!!!!!!!!"


Wednesday, April 8, 2009

"You are going to be a good president, I believe in you."

I have a lot of work to do,
and honestly I don't know if I can handle it.
Not because it's hard.
Not because I don't enjoy what I do.
I don't have enough time and I'm nervous for the outcome.
I'm not worrying about drama right now because I could give a shit.
Obviously not worth my time, I'm already stretching as it is.
I just hope this all turns out okay.
I'm not worrying about other people's catty shit.
Don't bug me.
I'm going to confession for all that shit I think about you, my opinion of you.
As for now, until then, I don't care, and it's all stacking up.
Don't push me to my limits, because I will break.
Someone buy me coffee, someone hug me, someone tell me it's going to be okay.

I don't care.
I laugh your shit to sleep.
Oh and you didn't send me to the bathroom crying, bitch.
When I grow up, you'll still be making the same mistakes because no one, no one ever puts you in your place. You will be left behind sooner or later. Denying it only goes so far, putting it aside only goes so far, pretending we don't see each other only goes so far, but I'm not so sure I want to talk about it. I won't, refuse to stoop down to your level. You only boosted my self confidence, and you already have more than enough so it's all good.

p.s. Who's your bitch now?


Tuesday, April 7, 2009

At least,

I'm not janky.

Suck it,
"I've got my swim trunks, and my flippiefloppies."

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Flip on the telly,

Palm Sunday.
Was nice.
Nice day and I spent the majority of it sleeping.
I always have trouble waking up from naps especially when I don't much sleep in the long run. Then when I'm "awake" after wards I'm not really awake, awake, more like zombie awake.
running into Brett walking his dog
Not finishing Changeling because Julio is paranoid
Ay Raul it's babydoll
Ricky Ricardo
racing Carolina and winning every time
rolling around on drama mama's skateboard
stupid ass
feeling sick after eating @ some burger place
learning how to play Emily on the guitar (kinda)
Slat--'s tattoos
ride back to Carolina's with no left turns
four leaf clover
oven pizza
Madagascar 1-2, House Bunny
singing along with Taking Back, Julio can actually sing, who new?
"My oven is on."
Tropical Popsicle
Stickam; Grimbo, J-- is a faggot, "It's just Carolina"
We're everybody's favez
Coconut sucks
Did you kill my son?
on it like white on rice
Freaking A, I have to sit through one more week before I get my break.
Ahhhhh Shiiiiiiiiit
It's going to suck that Mares has her break this week and I have mine the next.
Crap Dude,
I guess I'll be spending 24/7 with Carolina and that's fine with me.
Maybe go for some long ass bike rides.
I'll probably go to 6 Flags.
It is going to suck getting up the next 5 mornings.
Dude we have a freaking game before Easter.
Gr, Fallbrook, huh? I hope we win!!
We've only been beaten once, but we haven't played games to have enough points to be #2.
As of right now unless we play a game every weekend, win, ....
One more quarter.
Last quarter of leisurely,
I'm looking forward to Summer like no other.
Going to be epic.
I've realized I only learn in math and Science.
Everything else feels like review or the teacher is bad and doesn't teach me anything.
Either way I'm doing fine.
I am going to the movies with Diana and Linda soon.
I'm cited.
Oh Diana if you read this and I forget to tell you, I can't go Saturday morning.
I have a game.
The night is young.
With time to kill.
Reminder: Turn in "the Jacket" !!
-You're house is really clean and you act OCD but I think it's because you're scared of your Mom. I also wasn't surprised when I saw your step Dad. I think you are the cutest thing on the world! You're funny with out trying and a player. I could spend days with you and not be bored. I barely know you and that cracks me up. I'm still not sure if you're gay.
-You are sweet and I love you. I have nothing bad to say about you.
-I always have fun at your house. I wish I could move in.
-Even though your mom is scary your parents are lenient. If only my parents were as cool as yours.
-I hate feeling you give me. It frightens me, surprises me, yet I am not scared and I think that, that is what surprises me most.
-You still make everything awkward. I think we'll end up being close.
-You keep me on the edge of my seat waiting for your reply. You never seem to disappoint me.
-You add a little bit of fun to everything. I wish we hung out more. I wish I was close to you. I wish we started differently.
-I'm still saving my wish. I wonder if you still read my blog.
-I feel like a college kid when I watch Ace of Cakes. I feel old when I watch the food channel period. Then I think of you. I think of when you used to come over. When we waited in a 2 hour line to watch Hello Goodbye together. We share secrets. Well you share your secrets with me. I never call you young. I never tell you I love your chubby cheeks and I think you like me because I treat you how you deserve to be treated. I DGAF about -------- with you. Love you. You can come over whenever YOU want to.
-I want to have a sleepover with you alone. That might sound weird but whatever. It's true.
-We feed off each other. We read each others minds. We talk shit on our blogs about each other because we know everything will be the same, the next day. We won't bring it up, we love keeping the peace.
-I have so many unanswered questions about you. You are still a mystery to me. You still surprise me. You will never run out of stories I can laugh about, cringe about, or even cry about. I like that. I like your personality. I find you amazing.
-I hawked a lugi in your drink once, I think I told a priest about it, and if not, I will.
-Sometimes I can't understand you when you give your little shpeels. I know you can't help it and your sweet but if I can't learn anything I kind of want to go to a different church. I'm sorry.
-If you read my blog can you tell me, some how, it doesn't have to be blunt, it can be subtle. I just want to know.
-I wish I could drive just so I could be more independent.
-I wish you could drive so we could be more independent.
-Our family hasn't really been "family" but I want that to change. Work with me here.
-I have dreams about you.
-I play the what if game everyday.
-You are always the last person I think of before I go to bed, always.
-Sometimes I wonder why God made us meet. I wonder why God directed me in your direction. If it wasn't for you I wouldn't know half the people I do today. I thank you for that as often as I can. You were a big part of my life.
-I can't wait for freshman year. You better stick with rugby. I mean it.
-I think you are interesting but I know you think I'm weird because I actually care about you. With the sight of me you turn away.
-You still can't admit you were wrong because your foot is in too deep.
-I only really talk to you when no one is around and that is my favorite time with you.
-I giggle every time you flip your hair.
-I trust in what you teach me.
-I know I am your favorite. No need to reassure me, although I do like it, so go ahead, don't give in.
-I know you won't give up until you get your turn in the spot light, but your stage fright keeps you from your full potential.
-Don't bullshit me anymore. You've lost your power over me and you hate that.
-I would stay up all night if you wanted me too. I would fast from dusk to dawn if you wanted me to. Just to prove it to you.
-I laugh at your jokes even though they aren't funny because everyone else does.
-I think you protect me, secretly.
-I think you put up with me because you think I'm cool because of the people I hang out with. You think I'm going to be famous. I see through you like no other. I know who you like too. I have an inkling that you're bi too.
-I'd sing along to Panic,Kings, and Taking Back with you all day just to see your smile.
-You're your own disaster.
-You are everything I want because you are everything I'm not.
-We make jokes together, we are twice as funny together, I love ya.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

I'm passed out in your garden,

Say a prayer for Mark.
Dude everyone had to make a big deal about my height.
Even worse, "Yeah looking at those skinny legs."
Haha, I guess I don't mind.
Even though calling some one who is skinny, skinny is the same thing as calling some one fat, fat.
Pretty sad how someone has to be sick or dying for a good ole Irish family to get together. It has been so vicious, so catty, so ridiculous this past year (almost two). I have some bad memories, but some good ones too..
Wow, Family this year will be better.
I remember Christmas Eve, I felt like an outcast.
I was all by myself.
No Mary.
No Mom.
No Dad.
I remember getting pressured to play the white elephant gift game when I didn't buy a gift for it because I didn't get the memo. No one really expected me there. I had to be so admit, confident in my words other wise it would as if I didn't say anything at all. Don't give me a hug because you feel sorry for me, you don't know the first thing about me, don't look at me with disapproval, then look at me with pity. I hate when you look at me with surprise because my vocabulary is better than yours and don't talk to me like I don't understand. If you want me to be a part of the family, then let me be. Yeah, I know I'm the youngest, but I'm not as naive as you think. O yeah and I know what wet back means, stupid. Don't hush your little gossips because I walk within a couple feet of you. If I come sit next to you that doesn't mean I want to give you the skinny on my family. I didn't want to talk about my grandmother. And I didn't last that long in spoons because I'm stupid, obviously. I didn't hold my tongue to make you happy, I did it to prove to myself I could. And I already know, this Easter you'll try to act like nothing happened, but that just makes it so much worse. Don't worry I'm not ashamed. I'm not as fragile as you think.
I think I'm going to go to Easter just so I can kick some ass in the family games.
I think I'll bring GH4 along with me as well.
It's coming up..
And if not I'll join someone else's family celebrations.
I'm pretty good with blending in.
Parents love me.
Just walking in that wing, that smell, that elevator, that floor, all to familiar.
Sometimes I forget you're my friend, then I remember, then I smile.
Tomorrow, I'm pumped.
I love free weekends.
No game means LBC with C.
I need to go to the beach soon.
I hope it's hot and maybe I'll go on Sunday.
Serious body surfing.
I wonder if it's possible to forget how to swim because I could see that happening to me.
For some reason I really want to see a movie with Diana and Linda.
Nobody is ever down for hard core hideNseek. Birthdays are never complete, in my opinion anyway. Oh hey! My birthday is coming up.. hehe. I remember the last two birthdays "Weren't that important" or "You had a really nice birthday last year." Fuck you then why couldn't just tell me the real reason?! Trust me I already knew. I just wanted to hear it come from your lips.
Sometimes I wonder if I have what it takes.
I always find the guts, I find a way, to do what has to be done, when you can't.
Keeps me going.
-I hope you understand I care, I hope everyone knows, I'm not heartless.
-Everyday I see you and I feel like I know you. I don't know who you are, I don't know why, I just do. I've heard talk about you. Some how we have the same routes to class; sometimes I walk close to you just because it makes me smile that we both know we both notice each other every day. It's getting to the point where we nod, hum, or smile.
-I know you always follow me around for a reason. I think others are beginning to notice as well.
-You make Math enjoyable. I never want to change seats. I know we all flirt, no strings attached.
-I think we're drifting, but that it'll be over by next week I guarantee you. You have a rebound. I wish I had a rebound.
-I want to bash your head in sometimes.
-You annoy me so much, but you can't help it so I let it go. You aren't up to my maturity level yet.
-I try so hard, I go out of my way, this isn't normal for me, I promise. I hope I make you feel special, because you are.
-I know you lurk, I think I like it. I know you look over my myspace every once in awhile and miss me. Truth is, I miss you more.
-I feel like I can't talk to you because if I do it hurts others.
-I sometimes feel bad that you don't get the attention you deserve.
-I wish I could hug you all day long but then you might take it the wrong way, you might think I like you, you might over analyze it for something it's not, when really I know I'm the one over analyzing everything.
-One difference: I don't have OCD.
-I always flirt with you because it makes you feel better, I like making you happy.
-I'm not a project, leave me alone.
-I remember when I thought you were cute, but now everyone thinks your cute.
-I think you are so cute, I wish I could kiss you!
-I just want to call you and talk but I know I mean nothing to you.
-I don't doubt one bit that you have a thing for him, I don't know why I mind.
-I feel safe with you, and despite everyone else, I don't think that sounds weird. And yes, it hurt when you laughed. And yes, I wonder why I bother sticking around.
-I don't think you trust me when I have done everything in my power to show you I trust you. It just bugs.
-You are the farthest thing from a push over.
-You inspire me. I learn from you.
-You taught me how to be tough, I never cry anymore. I don't know if I should thank you for that or to hate you for it.
-I hate that you have black mail on me.
-I want to set you on fire, but I don't.
-You are funny, when my stuffy friends roll their eyes, I give you a high five. I love your personality.
-I hate when you act stupid, sometimes I think you are stupid.
-I don't change my password just so I can remember you. I have already forgotten your smell, to remember I have to get out your perfume I took. I hate that.
-Every time I look at you, you remind me of my past.
-I remember going to Colorado with you, I looked up to you. That was when you were cool. Secretly I still think you are. I forget you know how to drive sometimes.
-I laugh at everything we did. I miss you.
-You embarrass me so much. Do you not have a brain? I love you.
-I like when people tell me I should be a stand up comedian. It gives me a glimpse of what I will never do. I'm only funny because no one else you know is.
-You don't talk, you don't respond, I want to punch you.
-I only put up with your shit because I have to.
-I make you happy because I know you love me. I'm a big part of your life. I'm just sorry that you aren't in mine.
-I love you because we have been friends for so long, we always will be.
-We both knew we were best friends.
-It's not hard for me to apologize for things I've done wrong, but each and every time I do it means something, I don't say to say it.
-I hope you know I enjoy your company as much as you hate mine.
-I can't wait to make amends.
-I can't wait till I'm old enough to do half the things I want to do when I want to do them.
-Even though we fight, I know you'll always be there for me when I need you the most.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009


Here comes the fun..

This Friday, dissection with Diana.*
Friday-Saturday, Carolina's. **
Next week, no place for hate week, PAL involved.
Week after, Spring Break, six flags. ***