Friday, January 30, 2009

I've realized..

I've realized its pointless to waist your time being sad, bitter.
I've realized it doesn't matter what they think.
I've realized the more you stop caring the more they will.
I've realized being intimidating isn't a bad thing.
I've realized being shy is a waist of time.
I've realized biting your tongue is a bad habit.
I've realized the more you respect your self the more people respect you.
I've realized life really is to short, cherish it.
I've realized sometimes its okay to say fuck it.

I've realized I'm so judgmental! I wanted to revise some of these, maybe add a few.

1.I've realized you can't help but do that. I love you! After all you are trying! I can't help but think that you like 'someone'. I hope you go to Westminster. I have a feeling we are to be good friends.

2. I am pretty sad that you moved. Even though I don't mean anything to you. You don't really care about me, that is okay though, I guess. I know its kind of sad but when this year ends I will probably never see you again. I loved you before anyone knew you. We split, forced, of course. I know you won't remember me. I probably won't remember you either. I'm sorry I love you. =]

3. I was so wrong about you. You are shy but you are such a sweet heart. Maybe one day you'll talk to me. [QC]

4. At the show you were surprisingly not annoying.

5. I was so wrong about you. You can be funny. I still think you get mad easily. You make me smile. I love how we don't really know each other where we don't care, but we know each other enough where we can talk.

6. I think you are cute. I think I trust you the most.

7. You are good company. I was wrong about you. Turns out it just took awhile for you to warm up to me.

8. I like how you aren't that close with me but you still tell me all of your secrets. I love you.

9. I love moshing with you.

10. I love running to school with you but I think you don't know what you are talking about. This comes with being a scrub I guess. You'll learn to shut your mouth. Learn respect.

11. You would be fine if you didn't take her side every time and you didn't complain that much. I love you.

12. I am really going to miss you next year. I hope your parents decide to send you to Warner again, please. Sometimes I feel you are my only friend. Sometimes you are the only one I talk to. Thanks for letting me have some of your water everyday. I love you. Even though your birthday isn't for a couple more months, I'm excited.

13. Thanks for being my homeroom buddy. I think you are cute. If you were taller you could be a model.

14. I think you are beginning to crush on me, please don't. ='[ / Things would never be the same. I'm sorry. I love you.

15. I love how every time I say hi to you you smile and act surprised every time replying with the same, "Hi Michelle!." I think you are cute. You are going to get a girl some time. I just know it.

16. I love you for remembering my name and being the only one that remembers us every time. If only you weren't so judgemental. I hope you get married to Jessica.

17. I wish you would think about us once and a while. =/

18. I like your girl friend. She is nice. You are funny. You are sweet. I hope you get married.

19. I love you for being you. I love you for loving blink 182. I love you because you are sweet. I love you because you are down to earth and always talk to us after the shows. I love you because your valentine card is priceless. I love that you work at Wal-greens yet kick ass at drums. I don't think you are going to get married to your girl friend, but who knows.

20. I love you because you try at everything. I love you because you believe in your self. I love you for giving your self some credit. I love you because you aren't afraid anymore. I love you for letting go. I love you for caring. I love you for being brave. I love you for understanding...

Monday, January 26, 2009

I've seen happiness...





Sunday, January 25, 2009

This isn't happening,

Out of everyone on this earth I would not except drama coming from you, involving me. I can't believe this is even happening. When I woke up this morning I almost told Mary I had the weirdest dream, then I found out it wasn't a dream.
Wow, nice of me to finally find out your opinion of me.
I would never do anything like that to anyone. You don't understand how much this hurt. You don't understand that what you did is one of the worst things you could do to a person. You dare to judge us. YOU dare to judge US.
The thing is you didn't even ask us. You didn't even try talking to US. I don't think you understand. I don't think YOU understand. I hate being accused of doing things that I would never even think of doing. I can't believe you would jump to conclusions. If you are going to make assumptions about people make sure they make sense first, jerk.
The thing is this is one thing I never saw coming, came. Never thought about. Never over analyzed. Never expected. Never wanted.
You wouldn't even look us in the eye.
I don't understand your way of thinking!!!
I don't even know you.

It is so funny to know what the person across the room is thinking, yet you don't say anything.
It is so funny knowing that that person thinks so bad of you, looks down to you, yet you don't say anything.
It is so funny knowing that it will never be the same around that person again.
It is so funny being told to just be honest and to tell the truth and to apologize for something you DIDN'T do.
It is so funny when people are telling you we know you did it when you don't even know what IT is.

In conclusion this whole thing is stupid.

I just wanted to tell you fuck you and the high horse you rode in on and that I didn't do it.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

I'm going to make this quick,

I want to go to Ireland.

I think I'm beginning to feel overwhelmed.
So much going right now, I think I'm just tricking myself in to thinking this.
I could find time.
I'm just using it for the wrong things.
Like this and stickim-am whatever, not the host so don't kill me I'm not a whore;
going over to Jessica's to watch the haunting might be taking time chunks from both of us.
Whatever its only 7th and 8th grade, we'll be fine.
Wish me luck.
Sweet Dreams.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

I copied this, continued

I've realized that most of the others didn't make sense, but here I go again.

14. I guess we had fun. I guess we faught. I guess I miss you. I guess this is about more than one person. I guess you were fun. I guess truth be told I'm lying.

15. You text me a lot. I think you are so cute. I like your name alotz/

16. You are really good at rugby. You interest me. You were mean to me last year and now you are sweet! You are also pretty. I know you are going to go somewhere.

17. Part of your problem is knowing you have a problem. You can be really chill when you sit down. You annoy me, but you are cute.

18. Wow please shut up with all of your complaining, please. I don't think you realize how much you do complain, well, you do. ALOT. This annoys me so much! I do not want to go to a show with you. I don't know you. I don't want to know you. All time low sucks. You are going to embarrassed with your obsession when you are older.

19. Drive me around please. I lav you .

20. Hey kev-bot hook me up with a bean chi. We are best friends I swear!!!! I love you so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Awe, don't forget to use your diaphram.

21. I hope your son is cute. It sucks that when we meet him I'm going to be dressed like a boy.

Friday, January 9, 2009

I copied this,

1. Sometimes I feel like I try so hard to make conversation with you and all you can do is reply with the shortest mum` or nod. That makes me so mad, that's just rude. I always wondered why people flocked around you, maybe it's just me. I wish we were close.

2. No one likes you. You aren't as cool as you think you are. I catch you staring at me all the time. You get mad to easily. You make me so angry and I don't even know you. I want to throw things at your big fat head, SO PLEASE SHUT UP.

3. Please don't change, you're so pure, so cute. I know you are going to be a knock when you are older. I love you with all my heart.

4. We fight with each other a lot. We will always be that way, and I like that fact about our friendship. Sometimes I'm jealous of you and I like hanging out with you most when its just you and me. Don't bail on me please [talent show].

5. You are so cute, I love you. I wish we were closer. I need to sit closer to you in class so we can talk homegirl. I must be honest and was a little disappointing that you didn't get me anything for Christmas. That was embarrassing. I still love you. Please don't change. He is going to regret not liking you, I just know it.
Don't give up.

6.Wow, half of your problem is telling everyone that you have problems. You're a bitch. I know you like -----. I love you. Stay sweet but change, just in the right spots.

7. I wish you didn't do drugs. I wish you loved us as much as we love you.

8. As for you, you are conceited. Wash your hair. Use some deodorant. You are SOOO fake, I love you. Please don't get famous.

9. I wish you never told me about that party where ---- got drunk and 'others' were smoking. I always thought of you as a cute chubby little girl, until than. You hang out with the wrong people. I'm worried about you. I love you. Talk to me more, please.

10. I tried saying hi to you a few times but you make things so awkward. PLEASE stop being so shy. Weirdly YOUR stare doesn't creep me out. Please grow a pair and ask my beautiful 'you know who' out already OH MY GOD THAT PISSES ME OFF SO MUCH. YOU WOULD BE THE BEST COUPLE EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BE A MAN.

11. I don't know why you post 50 myspace pictures of your self, taken by your self if you think you are SO ugly. Please shut up. You are annoying. Stop posting those bulletins. They think you are annoying. When you said you have a lot of friends I didn't know you meant myspace, that makes me laugh. Get a life, quit the whore trains.

12. I don't think we considered each other as friends, at least in public, well you didn't according to someone. We didn't really get to know each other before everyone stopped talking, that makes me regret. I don't like regrets. Please, we need to catch up, something. I do miss you.. I think.

13. We always said we were going to bike with each other, and watch movies. That still hasn't happened, I think it's because I got to know your little sister, awkward. Well you are pretty. I like your teeth, a lot.

More later, rugby game in a few hours, wish me luck, and say your prayers.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Hey guess what,

I'm a Goofy Goober.

I saw Seven Pounds, and I loved it.
I was just so pissed off how it had to go down that way,
pissed off that they couldn't do anything about it.

but I loved it..

Tomorrow is going to be fun.
I need to go shopping for shirts and a haircut

I had an interesting time at the movies.
Some wanna be tubby cop told all the kids that we had to be by the parking structure.
I didn't know they had curfew at Bella Terra, what has the world come to.

There's a lot of good movies coming out.
I'm excited.

I officially want a Great Dane when I'm older.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Hello 2009

My break has been pointless but I can not say I did not enjoy it.
I just want to tell all of you that I love Pride&Prejudice so much.
LOVE IT, no matter you, Jessica.. I knew you loved it too.

I knew you would like The Shining too,

So there is my recommendation for both of those movies,
the first being a love story that will pull you into the movie and take you on an adventure.
The second being a classic horror that everyone should see before they die, you'll love it no matter who you are, nough` said.
Now go watch

I'm sitting here like the loser eating lunch in the bathroom.
I hope you guys are having fun because no matter what I did it seemed as if I just didn't belong.
Sometimes I don't like how you are both our friends because it just doesn't work.
It just doesn't.
We all know it.
3 is an odd number.
It just doesn't.
I know that can't be helped..but I can dream.
I wish we had our own house.
Sometimes I wish I had my own house, and I could drive.
That would be nice..............


I didn't have a nice Christmas.
Not even close.
The only good thing I got out of it was Guitar Hero 4.
I hope you did.

p.s. I don't want to go back to school,
mainly because I'll lose my one and only true love,sleep.
I love sleep, alot.